Saturday, December 26, 2009

VERY FULL!

still have this headache
feels like i have a fever
it goes on and off
really weird
anyway
today wasn't any stay at home day
it laster for 3 hours and i'm out of home
when out with bro and his gf
we went to Sunway Pyramid and had a sushi feast
YUM!
it's those rotation ones where you pick which sushi you want to eat
you can also order them if they're not on the rotation thing
so after that we when walking around the complex till like 5
and when across the road to have another feast
steamboat this time
we wanted to ask my cousin to join us but he couldn't make it
bad luck
anyway
we ate so much that....OMG i couldn't walk much
lol
I am still so full!!!
then we went over to my bro gf's family place
it was nice to meet them
nice people ^^
so that was my whole day in short
funny conversations in between! LOL
we're planning to watch a movie tomorrow night
I think we are watching alvin and the chipmunks part 2
hope we get tickets
buying them tomorrow morning!

BY PEARLY

Friday, December 25, 2009

Home Day

Mum and dad went out to visit the elders....
I requested if i can stay home
and dad agree so mum agree
and i'm home for the day....maybe
lol ^^
but home for now
hmm....not sure what i'm going to do
but it's not going to be exciting for you guys
my headache is gone! YAY!
slept on the reight pillow!
no weird dreams! PHEW!
I better go get some food
HUNGRY @@

BY PEARLY

P.S MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Merry Christmas

Didn't post yesterday
too tired!
came home and just wanted to go to bed
nothing much happened yesterday
just when and saw my aunt's new home
i like it
3 bedroom, a kitchen, a living, a balcony, 2 bathroom
it's an apartment unit
on the 12 floor
well it's just right for the 3 of them
today (or yesterday) is christmas eve
woke up with massive headache
and a really weird i mean REALLY WEIRD dream
thinking about it makes me shiver
anyway
didn't feel well
until now i'm having a headache
well better type this faster and go to bed
so later in the evening
i went to get a haircut
layered the front and i like it
i always wanted to layer my hair
but because in the past i do ballet
and have to tie it in a bun
it will be difficult if i layer my hair
so now i've stop i can do anything with it
well not anything
school doesn't allow extreme hairstyles!
later we rush home in the traffic and pick up dad and my grandparents for dinner at my other aunt (dad's side) place
had noodles and fried rice! it was alright!
didn't had much apetite though
so we left at aroung 9ish
when home...took a bath and wait for my uncle to fetch us out for late night coffee
since it's christmas eve!
so that was it back now
well i actually left alot of detail out
ceebs!
well nobody notice my new haircut
not even one *sigh*
oh well....it's not that obvious i guess
plus as if somewone would notice it....
i better go to bed...*yawn*
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

BY PEARLY

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

end of 2nd day

2nd day back from malaysia
still no fun yet
well...there is some
but it didn't last long....
*sigh*
how i wish we can go back to the old days
and just have fun
now you can't do this
you can't do that
blah blah blah
now going back to Malaysia = going to jail
being behinh bars doing nothing
well doing something not exciting or FUN
So what is the use of coming back then
I don't know anymore
*sigh*
another boring day tomorrow...
JOY! NOT!

BY Pearly

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

No luck today!

hmm...well i just ended a game of mahjong...(as in real type of mahjong/3 players)
adn i freaking lost like about...Rm60+
not happy
well i was playing with my grandma and my great aunt
I have to keep playing even though they told me to stop
well...they are old people
I don't want them to stop having fun
I was winning straight for the first few rounds...but then it got worse
and i lost everything
and both of them were playing against each other
while i'm just sitting there letting them win....
at the end of the game
I told mum to give them back their money
as in clear the money i own them
and of course i knew it was approx. RM30 each
because each round was like minimun of $5
and it was like 15 rounds of RM5
but they didn't want to accept it
i was like (thinking in my heart)
"don't lie...as in you don't want the money"
It's just that I can't socialise with old people much
i can...but if they make me feel down i feel abit irritated
well most young people do
my grandma is a person who is arrogant and goes her own way
even my grandpa can't influence her
well...to be honest
she is the main reason why the hole is still a hole
grandpa is getting lenient on this hole
but grnadma is still freaking arrogant
and i can't stand it
But i love her....well not like really crazy about her
it's just that mum can't live without her
grandma can't look at things in a different way
no matter how much we say how much we tell her
she still looks at the situation her own way
eventhough she knows she is in the wrong
she can argue back
like we say in chinese
she can make the dead alive
she can make something wrong become right
it's just...i don't know
she gets angry on small little stuff
i can understand her that she wants love from her children
but she needs to understand too that
her children has family too
they have to go to work, earn money to feed their family
you will be smilling when they have time to see you
grandma just wants her children to...you know
be with her, call her, visit her, give her money...
well she can argue that they don't give her that much money
so what? you don't need that much from each children
you have 7 kids
a hundred each will be 700
700 for both grandma and grandpa is totally enough for a month for 2 people
and she still say its too little
she expects 1000 from each children
grandma....please think deeply
they still have their family to feed
they have to pay bills
they have to do other stuff
1400 is totally enough!
I am glad with that amount
maybe its just that my grandparents think differently
my other grandma doesn't expect money from us
as in she does expect but not that much....
I don't know
i don't think she will understand....
ok she will but in a different way to the modern society

BY Pearly

P.S *sigh* i think i was too over about what i just wrote....but that was what i was thinking when i was facing her for the past 2 hours....sorry

Conclusion

Back again...*sigh*
We had the dinner i mentioned in the post before
wasn't as exciting as i thought
Full though but....meh
Well at least the dinner gave me an answer
the problem i mentioned in older post
is still freaking there
like i said
if the time limit to cover up this hole is over
then it will always be a hole...a deeper hole
deep metaphor eh?
well...don't really want the real meaning to be so obvious
*sigh*
this trip isn't going to be as good as i wanted it to be
well I knew quite well that this will happen
but it just hit me in the face
Time can't actually solve everything
well it sort of have
the hole is somewhat getting smaller from what i seen
except it's just about 30% of it....
the other 70% doesn't want to help
might as well let everyone fall down
well....the last chance will be on New Year's Day
HOPE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT!

BY Pearly

Monday, December 21, 2009

Airport Chaos

I suddenly thought of something that I wanted to blog about
it's about the day when i'm coming back to Malaysia
I was so freaky...hahaha
the night before i was like
...."we will arrive in Malaysia safe and sound"
and of course we did but there were some GLICHES on the way
ok...when we reach the airport
the counter for our flight hasn't open for checkin yet
so we waited....
after 15 minuted i was like
um...mum do you think the people are on strike
as said in the newspaper and mum was like don't be silly
so we waited for an hour
and finally they open up for check in
well that wasn't really a glich anyway...
when it was our turn, we went up to the counter and there was two ladies there
one was a trainee and one was supervising her
so i was like ok...
dad then put the luggage on the scale so they can be weight and check in
mum and dad's luggage weigh at approx 33kg
usually we can pass with that weigh
cause each person is allow 20kg
and me mum and dad added together will be 60 kg
so my bag and another small luggage add with mum and dad's wouldn't even reach 60kg
but the trainee said that eventhough it won't add up one luggage can't overceed a limit or something
so we had to take out stuff from it...
we took out i think some biscuits and a bottle of honey
sounds weird but we bought them for relatives here! bear with me
anyway...we didn't think twice and just grab stuff and put it in mum's handluggage
and then the trainee was like....
i reset the scale try again and i think it will be fine
so dad put the luggage back onto the scale again and it was a kg less and she was like yeah that's fine!
WHAT?! stupid trainee
so that was settle and we check in
and then we when through the passport controls...and before we enter the gate the controller was like ....if you have any liquids it must be under 100ml or something simillar
we were like no no no we don't and then we went through customs
and then arrive at the xray bag checking point if you like to call that
so we did our usual bag checking, laptop out of laptop case blah blah blah
and then *dun dun DUN!!!!* (sound effect LOL) mum was like OH SHIT (she didn't say that, well she just clap her hands and said something bad in chinese) THE HONEY!
and i was like *CLICK* OH SHIT IT'S a LIQUID over 100ML
and the inspector was like is there water in the bag
and mum was like it's honey
and the inspector's face was like HUH?! HONEY!?
so mum went back through the metal detector and they threw the honey out
and there goes the honey
glad it was just homebrand...cheap o homebrand
after the checking point mum was like i forgot that we can't bring honey and stuff like that
well the person did warn us we just didn't notice! lol!
anyway....nothing much happen until we arrive in Malaysia....
after customs and to the baggage reclaim
we collected two of our bags and waiting for mum and dad's (AGAIN)
we waited and waited....everyone slowly got their bags
it was a long interval between the two bags and the last one and i was like something's wrong! lol
and the a ground staff came to us asking if we are still waiting on bags on this caresoul and we were like YES and he said that the loadin of bags was over and this is it!
mum and dad's faces turn green
and they were like saying they will check again blah blah blah
and gladly they say they found it
so we got our bags from at the far end and left the baggage reclaim
we went to buy a ticket for an airport taxiand ended up buy two taxis for an expensive RM144! @@ it was like RM85 per taxi before
we couldn't fit one because they say our baggage wouldn't fit
but we usually fit in one but why not then?!
so we went into two taxis
dad
and
mum and me
our taxi driver was driving so fast that mum was so scare! LOL
i was alright
listening to my IPOD and dancing to the beat! ^^
so that was the big chaos...
BIG to me....lol
it's just mad

BY Pearly

P.S not using Peanut to sign off now...using my real name PEARLY! ^^

AWESOME!

I'm in Malaysia now ;)
Read your new blog entry bec!
seems like you're having fun!
Don't worry about me
Malaysia will cheer me up!
and i'll be as happy as ever when i start 2010
A Mac for Christmas...sounds good
i got a camera! hehe!
anyway! today's the first day back from Malaysia
going to blog everyday over the time here!
Hmm...today woke up and when over to my grandma's place
chat abit and ate lunch there
we bought takeaway and ate together ^^ YUM!
then when home and now typing this blog entry
waiting till 8 for a family dinner! :)
Well tomorrow is a important chinese festival
but we are celebrating it today with grandma (mum's side)
and celebrating with my other grandma (dad's side) tomorrow
Cause in traditional chinese festivals - all of them
if you're a married female you must go back to your husband's home to do whatever needed
you can't go back to your original home
well i don't know if you get me but chinese will know what i mean
on this festival we eat a flour made ball which we boil with water (added sugar) and eat it
because a ball is round and round in chinese = being together
so this festivals brings all the family together
and after this festival you are another year older
seems complicated?
that's ok! lol!
well this is just some culture stuff
but anyway i'm just excited i'm seeing SOME of my family members tonight!
^^

BY Peanut

Saturday, December 19, 2009

*skiping* Home sweet home!

I'm going back to Malaysia tomorrow!
AGAIN!
YAY!
Excited!
HOME SWEET HOME!
well it is my true home!
I can't wait to see everybody
eventhough i saw them in September
I still can't wait!
We have Christmas and New Year coming up!
More gatherings!
and my grandpa's birthday dinner!
even more gatherings
you can see now that i love gatherings
cause i hate being alone
like to feel the love baby!
lol! I'm HIGH now!
HAPPY!
^^
Hope everything will go safe tomorrow and we will safely arrive in Malaysia
no hassle no trouble no sadness
just fun, happy, coolness!
YEAH! WUHU!

BY Peanut

Friday, December 18, 2009

Cousin's 21st

Back from my cousin's 21st
it was so awkward!
I mean....this is actually the first time i saw him (and his brother) face to face
well i seen both of them before
but it was just like a glance and in photos
I haven't met them till last month...
it's like my long lost cousins
Ok...i don't know if they're my cousins
WAIT! that's wrong
i mean i don't know if i'm suppose to call them as my cousins
ok...they're my dad's cousin's sons
so does that count as my cousins?
this is so complicated!
even mum and dad wasn't sure about it
when we arrive, there was so many people
which wasn't what i expected
but i should had expect it cause they are very sociable people
the food was nice (REALLY FULL!!)
however the atmosphere was a bit awkward...
i know no one there and at that time i feel like going home...
home as in Malaysia with my family
I want that atmosphere where everyone there knows you and talks to you
I want it so badly and miss it so badly
but i'm going to have that soon! in a few days time! YAY!
I'm home sick now...lol
I'm always closer tomy mum's side of the family
bit distance to some of dads'
but I can still manage it...i guess
*sigh*
I hope i could celebrate my 21st or even 18th with all my family members
but mum said she still has work over that period and we can't leave Melbourne
she said it can only be a belated...
oh well...better than nothing

BY Peanut

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Learners

Im getting my "L"s tommorrow
I'm freaking out now
I'm so nervous
I hope I pass
and the vision test (i wear glasses if you don't know)
i hope i can see
even if i wore my glasses i can't really see that well of a far distance
*sigh*
fingers cross!
PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
please....lol
I did all i could
however tht doesn't include me memorising the whole booklet
did the practise test and got a few 100%
but still...
GOOD LUCK 2 ME!

BY Peanut

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love you but I hate you..............

BY Peanut

Saturday, December 12, 2009

棒棒堂!加油!

今天是你們的大日子!
在廣州開演唱會啦!
現在....
這時間應該開始了
六棒要加油!
我是傳奇廣州演唱會大順利!
大成功!
我...會在這為你們加油!
敖犬加油!王子加油!
小煜加油!小傑加油!
威廉加油!阿緯加油!
棒棒堂加油!
你們是傳奇
你們是我們的傳奇!


BY Peanut ^^

Reunion?!

Have i told you about the reunion that our year 6 class is having?
i know i haven't ^^
My ex-classmates planned it and i was inform over fb a month ago
and they planned it on the 19th this month
I'm going back to malaysia on the 20th
I have mix feelings about the date they plan
first I won't be able to attend which i'm not happy about
but another part of me says that its a relieve i couldn't attend
this is because i haven't seen some of them for ages and it will be so awkward and stuff
and some other reason...*hint hint*
it will be so embarasing!
but now one of them...(the main important one that can make decisions! lol)
says he can't make it on the 19th and want to change the date to a different one
and he puts that me, nicole and suet peng (other classmates)
can't make it on that day too
well...
mix feelings again...
happy that i could go
but not really that happy that i couldn't....
ok...i'm happy that i can go, maybe can go.....and i'm freaking myself out after hearing that someone suggested to change dates
what am i going to where?
where are we going to go?
will they remember me? (one of them didn't! and i'm angry about that cause we were friends :(
i'm find with my close friends that i often met up with but not with the boys or other girls that i haven seen in ages
*sigh* what am i going to do....
it will be so embarrasing
PLUS!! i nearly forgot
they were saying that they are bringing their gf/bf to the reunion
AWKWARD!
i think they should stick to the date now....
maybe not if only they don't bring their partners....
*sigh*
maybe i should bring my cousin along since some of them know him
and i'll be superior!
AHAHAHA!....maybe not
HELP ME! freaking out here!

BY Peanut

Friday, December 11, 2009

Dream controlling

I learned a new skill over the holidays
I think i can control my dreams....lol
it's true
i've been doing it for the past day
I will wake up at 9ish and then realise that i want to know what will happen next in my dream
i'll go back to sleep and then think about the dream and i'll start dreaming again
back to the same dream doing the same thing
it is so cool!
lol....today was even cooler....
i was doing maths in my dream and it feels like i'm doing it in real life
maths is not cool but doing maths in my dream and realise that i got it right is so cool!
ahaha!
I love it! ^^
Hope i can do it more often!
hehe! I can make it go the way i want it o
AMAZING!

BY Peanut

Thursday, December 10, 2009

LOVE YOU!

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT I ONCE KNOW
EVENTHOUGH WE WEREN'T FRIENDS
EVENTHOUGH WE DIDN'T GET ALONG WELL
EVENTHOUGH WE HATE EACH OTHER
EVENTHOUGH I DON'T KNOW YOUR NAME
EVENTHOUGH YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I AM

YOU HELP ME GO THROUGH HARD TIMES
YOU WERE THERE (SOMEHOW) HELPING ME
YOU WERE THERE TO BE WITH ME
YOU WERE THERE....JUST THERE

I LOVE YOU...
GIRLS
OR
BOYS

I LOVE YOU....SPECIFICALLY
MUM
DAD
MY FAMILY
COUSINS
BEC
ELLIE
MY FRIENDS IN MALAYSIA
AND EVERYONE AT SCHOOL

YOU GUYS ROCK MY WORLD.....ILY!

BY PEANUT

Sorry...

I really want to apologise to you bec...
well i feel sorry for being so angry at everything that is happening to me
it just feels like everything is collapsing on me at once and i feel like a small speck....
after reading what you wrote and actually had tears
well it's not your fault or ellie
it's just fate that you guys have to leave...
as i'm the only child in the family
i just wanted someone to be there for me when eveyrthing goes wrong
to share secrets and tell them what's making me down
i just feel like i don't have anyone beside me
mum and dad are not the right person to talk to
i have no close friends in malaysia that i can really talk to since we haven't seene ach other for ages
my cousin who was the only person that was so close to me when i was little seldom communicate now since he has his own life to deal with
and now at school i just have friends that say hi and bye and talk about school work
i just feel like i have to talk to myself and find an answer out of myself
everytime i have a problem i have no where to look too but myself and the walls around me
I just feel lonely
I want someone to talk to
to tell everything that i have
so they can help me with my problems.....
sometimes my phone is just devoted to you and ellie
my inbox is just you and ellie
and everytime my phone is on is just because of you and ellie or mum and dad
i wait for txt messages
i wait for e-mails
i wait for replies
i wait....
I sometimes feel like i'm waiting for something for my whole life
a friend?
everyone i know in malaysia are having such good social life that i'm so jealouse
thanks for everything bec even though sometimes i get so angry and frustrated with you
i love you so much
i just can't bear seeing that i'm alone with no one to talk to
and you....
moving to a new environment can make so close friends so easily
I sometimes think myself as a failure in socialising but sometimes i think i'm so good at it
because I am friends with you and ellie
and I love it!
Thanks guys.......

BY Peanut

我可以~ 我可以愛你但你呢?

我可以~蔡旻佑

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

愛你....說不出口!

又寫中文了!
剛讀了藝人們的blog
也有些衝動的想來留言
從上個月到現在
心裏有浮現多年以來的....困擾
這困擾呢...
是因爲一個人
那時誰呢
這就不能說啦!
但可以說得是...
又愛又恨
忽冷忽熱
問題就出現在這!
還有我們的關係....
有點尋常
其實是單戀啦!
他也不知道
說也沒用啊
因爲我們不肯能還有不可以!
所以呢...只好這樣煩
看到他對別人好
又會妒忌
看到他對我說的話
以爲只是對我說
原來發現,
他也對別人說一樣,一字不漏的話
傷心極了!
我明白我現在是一廂情願
但...我們現在的關係
不能和他說嗎!
每晚想他時
都會對自己說
“忘了吧!”
但....我做不到
明天早上,開眼睛
想的就是他
唉!
只要開心就可以了!
想那麽多也沒用....
頭髮都會變白!
煩死了!
挨.....這次嘆氣也沒用了!

BY Peanut

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Am i the only person here that don't have any friends....
any true friends...
i know i touch on this subject before but it's still bugging me
am here waiting for my cousin to go online on the the other end
he told me to come on 9 later so we could continue our conversation
but i'm actually really tired
i don't want to go to bed.....
.....well...i don't want to
...i want to talk to him.....the only person who talks to me on msn but now nobody is talking to me...
everyone is leaving me....
true friends!? HAHA there is no such things
BFF?! no way is that true...i feel so left out
looking on FB on my "best friends" pictures
i just feel well.....i really don't have any friends at all
nobody! i don't care if you or anyone reads it!
i don't! i want everyone to know!
I don't have any friends....and i'm suffering here!
why am i so stupid at socialising
i need a book of the idoit's guide of socialising
but i don't think i can even learn it
even with guide-to-guide steps...
so what! i've suffer from the start of my life...
might as well continue....everthing will be fine
i told you....everything will be fine...
my cousin just came online....but the only trouble is...
will he talk to me?
no one talks to me! and nobody understands that feeling!
because everyone i know has friends more than me....
look i only have 20 contacts on my msn list and i talk to barely 1...how sad

BY Peanut

Sunday, November 29, 2009

JAPAN here I come!

mum booked our tour to Japan next year and i'm happy about! REALLY HAPPY!
i wanted to go there for ages plus we're going in the sakura season!
it will be so pretty!
and it's spring!
no cold weather...much!
then we will be ging to Tokyo disneyland and universals studios!
THEMEPARKS! they always make me happy!
i think the whole trip is 7 days and 5 nights
why only 5 nights?!
i think we are spending a night in on the plane
night flight...
i'm ok with day but i do prefer day flights!
I can go shopping in Japan!
yay! but i'm not sure if we're having any free-and-easy days!
i need to get a camera before going to Japan
then i can take all the photos i want! hehe
well i could use my dsi but it will look weird!
lol! ^^
i'm LOLing and laughing everywhere on this post!
I'm so excited but i hope there is no last minute backing off or canceling
i would be shatter!
broken into pieces!
Cry and whine all day!
^^

BY Peanut

Friday, November 20, 2009

Day off

when out with bec today...
watched new moon!
thought it was good....
th ending was a cliffhanger
but we all know the ending...so no need to worry!
there was someone in the cinema snoring throughout the whole movie
and it was ANNOYING!
how can someone sleep while watching NEW MOON!
I mean...if you don't like the movie..please don't sit there and sleep
it annoys the shits out of me!
lol!
after the movie we when for a shop and lunch and then we when into safeway(the second time that day)
and we had this photoshoot in there with my Nintendo DSI
it was the funniest thing ever!
we when to every section (well some!) and took pictures with different items...
and then at 3 we left epping plaza.
well....there was a dust storm/thunder/wind while we were having lunch
and at home...the doors and windows werent really close
so we had dust everywhere
mum and dad are cleaning it now... *sIGH*
hanging out with Bec helps me take my mind of things...
things that are eating up my life anf brain!
don't know what i'm thinking is right or wrong!

BY Peanut!=

Right or Wrong?

now
i just feel like...
nope this is not right
and i don't know what's right or wrong
it feels right to me and then later it just doesn't
in real life it's wrong.....
I think i don't have much self-control
even something small can easily make me happy or sad
my moods towards this LOVE is just meh...
right or wrong nobody knows
not even me....

BY Peanut

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

....exam result continue

oops...sorry for the post before
i was so work up when i knew they were about to play the MV
lol...and i'm listening to the same song now! ahaha
ok back to the subject
i have the results beside me!
Maths: B (mrs swain didn't calculate the percentage! lazy! lol!) But i thought i could do better. oh well it's over! the past is the past!
Science: 77% same thing thought i could have done better! :S
English: 80% (a big drop from 91%!)
Legal: 88% (another freakin big drop from 91%! CRY!)
French: 81% (ok with that mark!)
VF: 87% (i freakin whing that!)
Health: B (whing that too!)

that's it!
massive drop but i'm just going to think positive
didn't fail....didn't go bad
better than i expected...well not really!
but i'm happy with it!
*clap clap*
thank you thank you! lol
anyways! there's this annoying person calling me a nerd here
so i better just rush off and defend myself
cause he is the one studying for exams now and i'm here...
relaxing...finished all my exams!
ciao!

BY Peanut

Exam results..

i don't have the detail results with me here
but here's the overall
got marks between 77% and 88%
OMG from super junior M is playing on TV
excited! woah!
going to go sing a long now
CIAO!
Be back soon!

BY Peanut

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Woosh!

the day is over...
that went really quick!
i'm getting my exam results tomorrow!
ARGH!
i'm so worry!
gotta think positive here
i'm just aiming for all my results to get an average B
that is my minimum!
please!
i need it!
these set of results are so important
cause it will effect my choices for next year's subjects
eventhough they can't stop you from doing what subject you want
i still want to get a good mark!
think positive!
yes...i can do this!
i have to wake up early tomorrow
so now i have to go to bed and can't talk to people in Malaysia now
time differences...*sigh* (here we go again!)
just want to wish my cousin good luck for tomorrow's spm exam
i wanted to say it through msn...
but he's not on it
just left a message on fb
hope he sees it before his exams
guess he is studying now!
lol!
last minute studying won't work my friend!
you tried your best...
just leave it now...
you can't do much
go to bed and have a rest...that's much more important now
and don't stay up too late! you have an exam tomorrow!
try your best!
good luck!

BY Peanut!

Happy birthday to...me

yeah...
i'm saying happy birthday to myself
how sad...
another year older
another year wiser
lol
i think i'm too tired
saying stuff that doesn't fit the age here
it's like 1:14am now
but i don't want to go to bed
i want to watch the sunrise
but my eyes is just not following my orders
...slowing shutting it's heavy eyelid
*sigh* i realise i've been *sighing* alot these few days
oh yeah
i read my old diary (hand written!) diary entries yesterday
and laugh to myself so hard
memories just come flowing back
i wrote one entry yesterday
something that i can't post on this blog
people say after writting or telling out what is in your heart
well make you feel better
but it made me feel worse
lol...now i will have to remember it forever
since it's written down
it will be a reminder of that day
*sigh* (agaiN!)...................................................................................................................(looking up to the ceiling)......................................(eyelid starts drooping).................(eyelid fully shut)............(startled by the music).......(gives up!)
ok..ok...i'm going to go to bed now.
can't do much if my brain tells me to shut myself down
hope i can feel love tomorrow
with birthday wishes on either msn o fb!
night night! ^^
hope i have a sweet dream tonight!

BY Peanut

Monday, November 16, 2009

VERY FUNNY!

Why doesn't anyone want to talk to me?
lol...i'm not joking
anyone out there in the universe....
i guess everyone is asleep
or maybe its my problem
oh! i'm guessing i'm invinsible here
and everyone ignores me! HARHAR
very funny guys...
please don't ignore me...
*sigh* i think holidays make me few like this
or maybe it's SOMEONE'S fault here!
talk to me!
TALK TO ME!!!!

About the dream thing in the previous post
it is evidently a dream
a sweet dream though
but it will never happen again
unless it wants to appear again
and wants to tell me something...
maybe in the next few days it will come back again
but for now...
it's just in its other land....
giving it's sweetness to someone else
more important than me....
but i still love the dream
eventhough i'm sharing it with someone else...
nothing can change anything
will it can...
it must someday
cause it's a dream!

I know you guys won't get what i'm talking about
don't worry
that's my point
i don't want anybody to know the true meaning of this secret
except myself or maybe that someone....
but nope...
it's a secret
a not so sweet secret....

BY Peanut

Friday, November 13, 2009

寂寞.好了 ~ 夜深了...我該怎麽辦?

寂寞. 好了~ 蔡旻佑
拼命的奢望 闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手 就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的 心脏
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝 我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长
关于爱 感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
心放空了 寂寞 好了
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放 oh~
夜深了我怎么办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀 飞翔
没有你 心放空了 寂寞 好了

BY Peanut

was it just a dream?

am i just willing to accept something that is not true...
something i know would never happen
believing in something that even it is the end of the world wouldn't happen
.....
yesterday night....
i guess was a dream
a big, long dream
of just me....and my willingess
me and myself...
nobody but just me

I'll go to bed now....
i don't want this dream to happen again...
since we are in a different state of time...
might as well let me dream on first....for real.
good night everyone...
bye my beautiful dream....ILY

By Peanut

Thursday, November 12, 2009

拾忆~你已把我忘了...我該怎麽辦?!

hey bec, those chinese post are just lyrics from my favourite songs
nothing much about me! lol....
well, there is,
the lyrics is actually my feelings
but you can't understand it...
you can but it will take ages
so here's another one to annoy you!
just a note
this song is on the sidebar
where the music player is....
it's a nice song
and i love it so mucheeeee!


拾忆 张翰
翻开日记整理破碎的心情
不知怎么你什么都已记不清
但我相信只要相爱就有魔力
但是换来一次又一次失意
你我的爱像融化的冰淇凌
虽然很甜却没有了那种晶莹
我会每天反反复复给你温习
找回那份遗失的专属甜蜜
怎么会忘了情
让我丢了你
傻傻的
还以为能够在一起
划过了流星
身边没有你
就算梦实现也没意义
你我的爱像融化的冰淇凌
虽然很甜却没有了那种晶莹
我会每天反反复复给你温习
找回那份遗失的专属甜蜜
怎么会忘了情
让我丢了你
傻傻的
还以为能够在一起
划过了流星
身边没有你
就算梦实现也没意义

还以为能够在一起
划过了流星
身边没有你
就算梦实现也没意义

*邀您一起来看流星雨!*

BY Peanut

HATE!

i'm going to freakin make a list of 10 things (...or more) that i hate because my emotions now are nothing but hatred! HATE! I HATE YOU!!!!!!

1. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE FORGET ABOUT YOU BUT YOUR MIND REMEMBERS THEM CLEARLY!
2. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE IGNORES YOU TREATING YOU AS AN INVINSIBLE THING!
3. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS AND SAY WHATEVER THEY WANT!
4. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE THINKS ITS FUNNY WHEN IT IS NOT EVEN A JOKE BUT AN INSULT!
5. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE CUTS INTO THE CONVERSATION AND MAKE YOU LOSS YOUR TRACK OF WORDS!
6. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TREATS YOU REALLY NICE AND THEN ANOTHER SECOND THEY JUST WALK OFF!
7. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THEY LOVE YOU BUT THEY DON'T!
8. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE BREAK THEIR PROMISE!
9. I HATE IT WHEN THE PERSON YOU LOVE DON'T JUST APPEAR WHENEVER YOU WANT THEM TO...NOT FOR ME
10. AND I HATE IT THAT I TAKE THINGS SO SIMPLE AND EASILY!!!!!

I HATE IT! ok....clarify i'm not turning into an emo or something...not going to cut my wrist now but i'm actually really raging now....don't ask me why and of course i'm not gonna tell but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! TEARS OF ANGER ARE ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS! haha quote from twilight that caitie and laura always intimidate! lol!

BY Peanut

Friday, October 30, 2009

don't expect...

sometimes life isn't what you expect it to be....
For example,
you didn't expect to do exams
you didn't expect to dream about something bad
and you didn't expect to not ever have a true friend

ok point number 1.
nobody likes exams and i freakin don't like them.
I had my maths exam (tech free)today
it wasn't hard..it was alright i guess
but i knew i got a few wrong
silly mistakes
then after the mid-term break
i'll start my exams
math and legal on the first day
english vf
science health and then french and french oral on the last day
I'm kinda stressing but not
if i think about it i will go nuts
and if i don't i'm happy
so i'm trying hard to not think about it
but guess what!
its not working! UHHHHHHHHH!

point 2
these dreams are really stressing me more!
ok, i don't really want to go in dept
but it relates to death
and it was the same death twice now
and i don't want it to happen
which i know somehow will someday
but not now....

point 3
true friend
what is a true friend?
i actually don't have a true friend
when the world walks out on you, a true friends walks in
and i don't think anyone had qualified that
not even you bec! LOL
you move to ridgeway! and ellie....
JKs!
anyway, friends at school are just on and off friendliness
sometimes they are really friendly
sometimes....just don't say hi
don't feel sorry for me
because i'm use to it
when i was small i'm already used to it
even my cousin(my 'best' friend) is walking away from me
i don't know!
UH!

LoL, Bec i read your draft, lol funny! hope you blog soon! SOon! and happy studying to everyone!

BY Peanut

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Safe and Sound

Back to Melbourne now....
lol, i'm like on the other post
" I'm in Malaysia now"
and then now i;m like
"i'm back in Melbourne now..."
i find it quite funny....
I don't want to go to school tomorrow
i want to stay at home a day and then go to school
I don't want to go!!!!!
but i don't think i can
i have to
dad is so mean!
BLEH!

BY Peanut

Saturday, October 3, 2009

I knew it....i always do

Today, or should i say yesterday now
we celebrated the mooncake festival
eventhough the real day is today
we celebrated it yesterday because we are not free tonight as we are going to dinner with other people
as i said before i knew that my aunt and thier family won't come
and of course i was right
they never appeared....
remembering all those years me and their family celebrated togehter
light candles...and lanterns
and guess what....i don't think we even ate mooncake yesterday
we ate western cakes...as in real cakes
as my other cousin's chinese birthday
so they might as well celebrate it
my uncle got two cakes
one birthday cake and one tanlung cake
which means latern in chinese
which was really funny
we thought it was a cke made in a tanlung shape or something relevant to it
but i was a american choclate cake with "happy tanglung" written on it
i was laughing myself out
after that me and my cousins when outside to start playing with the candles and lantern
that was meant to be the spotlight of the night
however...it felt so ordinary...so quiet and ...boring
we did the ritual of burning a rock but still...
it's not the same as before...
i don't think it will ever be...ever

BY Peanut

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

.....

I"m sitting here,
listening to this phone call mum is making
aruguing....
it finally struck...
i could here the other voice from the other end of the phone....
mum...looking at me with those red eyes
saying that next year....we are not coming back to Malaysia anymore..
why can this happen?
why would this happen?
i really want to cry my eyes out but not in front of mum....
i don't know.......

BY Peanut

我愿意当你的~分身情人

分身情人~魏晨

看你为谁苦闷
我就集中精神
清理心情灰尘
赶走悲伤气氛
听你开朗笑声
吻住我的灵魂
好想陪你狂喜
分担你的闷

没有特异功能
是你激发潜能
才能无时不刻
拦截你的心疼
不要笑我的笨
想法都很单纯
不是超人却想为你变成万能

想做你的分身情人
守在每个精彩过程
直到有天
你会心痛我的心疼

把我当作分身情人
翻倍感受你的苦乐
幸福在不同场景记录着我们
只能有我们

不要笑我太愚笨
想法都那么单纯
想做你的分身情人
守在每个精彩过程

是遥不可及的恋人
却在每个精彩过程
直到有天
你会心痛我的心疼

把我当作分身情人
翻倍感受你的苦乐
幸福在不同场景记录着我们
只能有我们

Time can really change anything

Why is there day and night?
it just makes life more tiring
seeing one day go by so quickly
why is there clocks and watches to tell us when the day will finish?
it just makes life less interesting
this saturday is the mooncake festival
this is a festival where us chinese will celebrate
the reason>?
not quite sure eventhough i have ben celebrating it for the pass 15 years
we eat mooncakes and light lanterns and candles....
most importanly....it's a day for everyone in the family to come together to celebrate.
for the pass 4 years,
i haven't been able to celebrate this wonderful festival,
but this year,
i can but it won't be a memorable one
in this year,
our family hasn't got on really well....
well, it hasn't always been
everytime we come home from melbourne,
there will be some family problems...big or small
it just makes me more confuse why a family wants to argue with each other
this will only make everyone in a awkward position
now, our family are experiencing these awkwardness.
this person is mad at this person and that person is angry at that person
just because of something small
it can be solved easily
however, they choose the hard way out by ignoring each other
not talking to each other, not seeing each other?
why the fuss?
everyone is a family....
this mooncake festival....won't be a happy one
it will just be a disaster
mum is celebrating it on friday as we had another dinner at my father's side on the real day
at my dad's side, it's a whole story.
nobody argues....if they do they will laugh it off and be good to each other again
i'm not that close to that side of my family,
but whenever i see them,
they are always talking to each other, smiling and laughing.
at my mum's side...eventhough you see them laugh
you could feel that in their heart, they are not thinking the same thing as their facial experssion presents.
i thought this would be a fun day,
but the family...the person won't be coming.....
i know it...
they haven't step into this house for the last past month because they had an argument with grandma...
for what reason, i don't know and don't ever want to know
but i feel so tired from all this avoiding
we can't do whatever we want...we always can't do whatever we want
time really can change everything...no matter how strong the relationship
even parents and child or brothers and sisters, friends or even partners
you see people loving each other but with a blink of the eye,
you see them seperate and ignoring each other
i really....really hope that this mooncake festival can bring everyone together
hope that everyone can see down and talk through this whole thing
sort things out....
if it doesn't work....
it will just be that none of them will come
or
it will turn into a bigger argument or even worst
this hole will never ever be able to be repaired again...
never ever...'

BY Peanut

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Malaysia

Been in Malaysia for 2 days now

It's been alright

Have so many places to go

And I woke up really early these few days

But when to bed late these few days too

Just went to watch G-force just then

And I nearly fall asleep

It's not that the movie is bad

It was actually really good

I was just too tired

However,

If i have my laptop

I don't have that sleepy feeling

Well…not really

I'm a bit "OFF" now

I feel so uh…..

I don't know….

You sometimes have those feelings

You don't want to talk to anyone

Don't want to see anyone

You just want to be alone….by yourself

In your room

Listening to music

Or just laying down on the bed

That is what I'm doing now.

Malaysia….

HOT!

Really hot!

Maybe I'm used to the cold more now so I'm not used to the humidness and hotness

ALSO

I've been eating SOOOOOOOOOOO much

That I can't fit anymore into me….

Until tomorrow!!!! Ahahahaha

Anyway, we eat like every 3 hours

Which is really bad

No wonder everyone looks bigger to me…(LOL!)

I'm having fun with my new Nintendo DSi

Need to buy some games

Or I'll be so bored!

It's black and I love it!

I finally got it! YEAH!

J

BY Peanut

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Doing what?!!! Nothing....

uh, i'm here doing nothing
nearly going off to lala land
today I have nothing to do here at work expererience
they are having lessons on something
and i'm using the computer
playing games and typing this up
i want something to do
i could have finish packing my luggage for malaysia
and could have finish dl the whole series of
well not all as i have 15 more episodes to dl
and i have to finish them before friday
which is....
impossible
so...i thinks i'm going to bring my new laptop home
so i could dl it in Malaysia
i'm actually back home now
i safe it as my drafts
and now i'm conitnue typing it
i don't reall have anything to type now
......out of ideas.

BY Peanut

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Work Experience

Second day of work experience and 3 more days to go!!!!

It's ok….

Kinda of boring to….

Really have to admit that

They have to find me work to do

Plus I finish it so quickly

NO, I'm not praising myself but the job they give me is really easy

So I sometimes wait like 10 to 15 minutes before I ask them if there are any other jobs I could do

However, today was somewhat better than yesterday

At least I got to go out with Julie to schools…2 schools

To deliver books that they order

And one of the schools was mum's

And then I got to use the register for 3 customers….

Proud of myself

And I used the tilt too

And rip the receipt

And gave change back to the customer

Lol…..happy me

And then had lunch with mum

Well, I actually prefer school than this but if you ask me to choose between camp and this…

Work experience!

Camp was a disaster

Well…not really

I survived so it can't be that bad

!!!!!

Hope the rest of the week will be good

Oh, Mrs Burton came and visited me…

It was pretty awkward

She had to ask these questions that the school wants her to ask me

It was like….

What is the worst part

And I answered, having nothing to do…

Which is true

And she asked

What was the best part

And I couldn't say there is no best part of it because it is true

So I say I don't know yet , it will come later in the week

But it's true too…

Maybe it will come later in the week!

I'm actually not looking forward for tomorrow but I have too

Because the next day after work experience…

I'm going back to MALAYSIA!

YAY! Holidays

But I hope It will be a peaceful trip.

Everytime we go back there is always so may arguments and shouting and stressing

*sigh*

There has been one the day before……

Hope we don't have to deal with it!!!

BY Peanut

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Shopping Spree

Today we went down to the city for a shopping spree…me and mum

There is a reason why we when for a shopping spree

Cause we are going back to Malaysia the next weekend

So we have to go shopping this weekend to get stuff to bring back to wear

I bought a pair of shoes…sort of like converse

It's sliver , 'bling bling' lol!

It's what I wanted for ages!!!

I bought shorts and short sleeve t

I also bought a watch

ToyWatch…which cost like 4 hundred dollars

Which is about 1200 in Malaysia currency

I'll have to not eat and go shopping for the next have a year!!!!!

But I like the watch a lot

It had bling too and it's blue chronograph

Kinda cool!!!!

My luggage is going to explode!

I'll have so many clothes to bring home to wear!

And I also don't know which laptop to bring home

The IBM one? On this one?

The IBM one has my ITunes on it which if I wanted to upload songs on my ipod I could

This is one I'm using has a faster processor and better connection cause it's new

I don't know!

I also don't know what shoes to bring back….

I'm stressing too much

And I have work experience on Monday till Friday

Ugh…

BY Peanut

Friday, September 11, 2009

Smile…We love you!

Laura and Caitie came to school today

They were in the boardroom most of the time with us girls and some boys (*ahem* boyfriend)

But they came out into the courtyard at recess and lunchtime.

When me and Emma first went in to meet them

I was so afraid that when I open the door I would see them crying or their eyes all sore and red

But when I walk into the corridor that leads to the boardroom

I hear laughter…from Caitie

It was such a relief

The girls were actually in a better state than what I thought

Just don't go in to much on the subject and it will be alright

They had been so strong

Glad they have each other to support

And they also have us!!!!

We love you Caitie and Laura!!!!!

BY Peanut

Thursday, September 10, 2009

我不会忘记....我们永远不会忘记你的存在

我不会忘记~曾国辉

不要惊醒这一刻的宁静
回忆举行盛大的游行
太多风景来不及看仔细
眨了眼睛一切都成为过去
我没有忘记
那年下的雨
淋湿了爱情
我们一同哭泣
我没有忘记
谁说过一句
感情是分不清
什么输赢
太多曾经太像一部电影
我们之间谁半途离席
谁最可惜谁来不及
是谁最先告诉我
你唱过的歌都很动听
我不会忘记
就算只是轻轻的鼓励
我不会忘记
就算只是小小的约定
我不会忘记
谁说过我爱你
也许转眼就分隔两地
也算是福气
当时那么不起眼
原来都是重要的细节
只有时间见证了我们的改变

BY Peanut

Gloom

The weather is so depressing

Today is so depressing

When I was on the bus today, I have this feeling that today is a bad day

I have my piano lesson

I have my French test and oral to do in front of the class

I have to go to Concord

However, you can get over these things after the end of the day

But I can't get over what just happened…..probably not at the end of the day

When we got to formroom,

Everyone was called into the same room (which isn't normal for us)

Then while calling the role, I saw Heather crying

I didn't know why, I didn't want to know why because it would be none of my business

So I just push it to the back of my head and said yes when my name was called out.

Then Mrs Scott our level manager came in,

Followed by Mrs Rowe, our head of secondary

I thought we were in trouble because there was a Facebook issue going on a few days ago

However, it was news

Bad news

Laura and Caitie's dad died yesterday…….

I couldn't believe what I was hearing…..

I couldn't think, and I couldn't close my mouth

Close friends of the twins started to have tears rolling down their face

And without noticing my eyes were stinging

Silent was everywhere

Nobody dare to talk or make a noise

Some left because they have to go to class and weren't close friends with the twins.

I stayed….i know I don't consider as a close friend to them but I just wanted to be there for them, no matter what

They have been there for me when I was lonely, and I want to be there for them

We hugged each other, some gasping with fear and unbelievable faces.

I couldn't bear thinking how the twins will feel right now,

And I can't understand that too

I'm not in their position right now…..

We were then settled in the boardroom and we sat there in silent for a few moments

And then Elish started grabbing the paper that Mrs Scott left so we could write cards and posters for the twins

She started writing "Why we love Caitie and Laura…."

Smiles appear in everyone's faces and slowly everyone started picking up pencils and started writing or drawing

By looking at how we react and the energy we have for each other was so amazing

The love….was so powerful. The bond between them and the twins.

I look at all the quotes we wrote and all the photos that they stuck on posters….

It was so amazing

And I realise, I actually don't really know them that well and I actually wasn't meant to be in there with them

I know it's not the time to think about these things

But I just amazes me that how much love and support friends can give to you

Me and Emma made a card for them,

A page was about Smithers a.k.a Voldermort.

We printed a photo of him and stuck it in the card.

I remember when we took that picture before assembly.

It was so funny……

Jemima contacted Courtney and Mina

Courtney is trying to get back from Adelaide tonight cause Jemima, Simone and Lexie are going up to the twins' place tomorrow

Andrew and Heather are going to ….. (Andrew and Heather were the first ones to know about the news)

This news compare to the three things that I thought was the worst thing ever this morning was even worst and horrible.

It is so unbelievable that someone can just leave this planet in one blink of an eye.

We weren't allow to contact the twins even on facebook

I won't be seeing them until next term

I want to give them a big hug

And want them to know….

Eventhough our relationship is not as close as you and Jemima or Simone but I just want you to know that you were there for me and I will be there for you guys.

We can go through the hard times together…..

We when through Science and Maths

This is just a bit harder than Science and Maths

But we know that we can go through it together.

Just remember everyone loves you…..

Your dad when to a beautiful place and he will hope you guys can live on happily…..

BY Peanut

P.S Remember we will always be there for you!!!! J L>O>V>E LAURA AND CAITIE!

Friday, September 4, 2009

不该结束....想念你

不该结束~南拳妈妈

窗外的雨停了天空还是灰的
因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着在笑容里停格
画面会永远留着

给多的是付出少给的不算输
感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部你还是想结束
我说你永远幸福

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始祝福的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住
你给的全部的全部

BY Peanut

Snippets

Just came back from the Yr 10 production "Snippets"
It's a traditional for Yr 10 drama students at our school to perform a play in Yr 10
Snippets is a series of short play
and i did actually enjoy it
Everyone involve in the play were stressing and saying how bad it was
compare to what i just saw....I was positive i wouldn't use bad to describe the play
it was awesome
everyone was awesome
Mackenzie was so funny....he is always funny
ahaha...
I went with Bec, Ellie and Grace
Haven't seen Ellie for ages, Bec for a while...Grace everyday
LOL
we talked so much
and it was a good catch up session
Bec and ellie was all shy seeing so much people
When we were talking,
i feel so free and comfortable around them
i just miss that feeling
and i always think
"what if they were still here at school...."
what will we be like.
Why did they have to leave????!!!!

By Peanut

Thursday, September 3, 2009

雨是眼泪.....狠狠坠落

雨是眼泪~飞轮海

天空突然灰了压上肩头
你给的出口我还不想走
躺下看乌云难捉摸的形状
好像有话要说却沉默
我们会不会那样
oh~baby 倔强到最后
变成阵风各奔西东

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪很想坠落
可惜地上挤满笑容哪里有空

天空像累了沉睡在心中
谁再仰望都无动于衷
每一朵乌云原来是什么颜色
为了谁而不同我们可不可以
oh~baby 不要倔强不放手学会宽容

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪怎么坠落
有谁会懂oh~谁会让它停留oh my baby

来一场暴雨把我卷走有没有用

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
却不敢放肆挥霍这点痛
雨是眼泪很怕天空
一无所有

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我知道天空只剩这点痛
雨是眼泪偷偷坠落
伞下的你刚好经过

Change

It's raining at the moment outside,
it was sunny for the 1st half of the day,
and now its raining
the weather do change really quickly
so does people and everything around us
or maybe it's just not being with them or it for a period of time
and when you see it again...
it just feels really different and everything has change
but to those people who is there for the whole time will be saying
"I need a change...."
Well, isn't change the basic personality for a human being
you're changing everyday
everything around us...the changes are all made from us
we change basically anything
and you say we can't change the weather...well we can in a way
Climate change....isn't that changing the weather
we can make the earth hotter and colder
the sun is slowly coming out again....another change of the weather...again.
Relationship change too....the common change in life
couples will say...."we need a change...let's break up"
friends will say...."you've changed....i can't be friends with you anymore."
the change you see around us is actually the change you made to youself that you change the view of what you see
the sun is glaring in my eyes now.....
change is everywhere
everywhere is change
change is made by us
and the change we feel is the change we made

BY Peanut

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

疯人愿....我是个疯子

疯人愿~魏晨

很想念我想你的笑脸
是对你的爱恋
声音回荡耳边
轻轻想起你对我那些誓言
真的好遥远在瞬间沦陷
很胆怯你对我的敷衍
不想对谁亏欠
泪水划过指尖
画面昨天的故事还在上演
如果能永远我依然情愿
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

很胆怯你对我的敷衍
不想对谁亏欠
泪水划过指尖
画面昨天的故事还在上演
如果能永远我依然情愿
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

我想要忘了忘了忘了忘了你的样子
心上的泪水画的日记一张白纸
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

BY Peanut

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

2 weeks

2 more weeks left till holidays
1 more week of school
and 1 week of work experience
I really hate the last few weeks of term
because you have so much test and assignments to finish before the end of term
this week has been so hectic eventhough it's the just the second day of the week
the yr 10 drama class have their drama play this thrusday and friday
they basically have rehersals every spare time they have
they need to stay in for lunch times and after school
i know it's not me but it affects us to
because of some group work we have to do together
especially legal which the script of our mock court is due this friday
we got most of the script done
we just have to finish it off and put it in order
memorise it and act it out
sound easy eh....it's not!
lol
plus the cadets have the passing out parade and they have rehersal of it this thrusday and next tuesday
we have to do our mock court then next thrusday or friday
we can't do it on wednesday because Alex is going on an art excursion
and the teacher wants the whole class to be there
however, courtney will be in adelaide for the whole week and now i have to memorise both her and my lines
i'm not good at drama and memorising scripts!
And then i have a french oral presentation
you have to descirbe a paiting or a picture in french
and present to the class
you get cue cards but only 25 words
what i am i going to do with 25 words and only in dot point form
and i have a frnch writting presentation too
I don't know....so hectic
and english Macbeth essay
VF Muhammad questions
FML!

BY Peanut

Friday, August 28, 2009

我知道....你还爱我

我知道~BY2

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

BY Peanut

Legal Studies Asignment

In legal, now until the end of term, we have an assignement to do
we are spilt in to two groups of six and we have to do a mock trial
we can choose to do a criminal or civil case
of course we choose to do criminal case!
the other group is doing it too
and my group is doing attempted murder
that is what the other group is doing too
copycats....lol
we were about to do murder but we won't have a victim then (the assignment specify to have a victim)
and then we thought why not do rape but then we thought of attempted murder
Jemima is the defendant
Laura is the victim
I'm the witness of the prosecutor
Courtney is the witness of the defendant
and Andy and Koldy is barristers for both sides
the jury and the judge is the teacher and people from the other group
by the way, i'm a french old lady in the case
i could use my french accent then!
This is the plot of or case
Jemima and Laura are sisters
Jemima is married
Jemima's husband have an affair with Laura and one day Courtney caught them 'flinging' but they didn't see her (just cutting short on the info!)
she goes back and tell Jemima and Jemima says she needs to calm down by herself so Courtney left
later, jemima couldn't calm down and grab a kitchen knife and drove of to Laura's
Jemima's husband when back to work before Jemima arrives
The Jemima, with the spare key opens the door and have an argument with Laura
Laura wanted to call the police and when she got her back turned, Jemima stab her in the back
Jemima grabs the knife and runs out the door (this is now night time!) and I see her through my window (i'm laura's neighbour by the way) and saw Jemima. I know Jemima because Laura and Jemima lived together before Jemima got married.

That is basically the basic plot.

We are still altering it if we have to suit the questioning of both barristers.
I hope we get this finish
However, Andy and Courtney won't be here to do the mock trial
Courtney is going to Adelaide and Andy have to go to the passing out parade for cadets
i'm doing Courtney's bit too so i'm two witnesses
As for Andy, we can't loose a proscutor so we might do it earlier than the other group, i'm guessing
hope it goes well
We have to film it so the teacher can slowly observe us on tape and mark us on it.
*sigh* everyone don't really co-operate hope it gets better....
everyone is so.....tired and droppy maybe its the end of the week....
It will get better, i guess.....

BY Peanut

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Friends or Lover?

well, here's the theory of today....
if you choose the lover you will lose the friend

Well, the theory is not really true,
it seeing what context you fit it into
well here's the context of mine that i saw at school today.

Well, Courtney was telling me, Lexie and Simone in the library that Erin and Piers are now going out.
Obviously, everyone gasp.
This is because you don't see them talk together often, so they're really not that close(...from what we see)
Plus, Tim asked Erin out before
And Erin said she'll go out with him and "try" it out.
But later she when to Canada for exchange
when she came back Tim asked her again but she refuse to go out with him anymore.
I know, Erin sounds like a bitch.
fooling around with people's hearts
I think so too. I'm sorry Erin....
Hope she doesn't find out my blog or i'm screwed
well, we weren't even really friends to start with but she is nice
anyway, nobody realy knows about Erin and Piers going out.
And Tim is really furious about Piers doing that
Everyone knows that Tim loves Erin... A LOT
and now Piers asked Erin out and Erin agrees?!
On the bus heading to Epping station (which means no much people is on the bus)
Tim and Piers were sitting at the front and back of each other.
Both of them leaning on the window.
Couldn't really worked out what they were saying but by seeing their expressions...
don't think they were saying good stuff
i thought i caught a sorry once but maybe not!
So i'm saying here,
to get the girl you have to lose your friend...
and also to get the boy you have to lose your friend...
it always happen in TV series but I never ever saw one in real life.
So here is my first experience!

BY Peanut

Happy belated Birthday!

Oops....I actually totatly forgot about your birthday!
Happy Belated Birthday JIRO
Well, i didn't really forget but i realise it was your birthday yesterday when i came home frome school....
which is a very big no no! :)
Ok, here goes my speech
I remember the day that i saw you in HanaKimi.
Well, Chun attracted me more in that show but i love the golden hair!
Chun then brought me to Fahrenheit which brought me to you!
Even though in Fahrenheit you're not my favourite one
You're the group leader,
and group leaders are meant to be loved
you're the spirit of Fahrenheit
no matter what you're the big brother to them (eventhough you're not the oldest! hahah)
and you have the most experience of them all.
you have own so many works of your own especially Taiwan drama series.
you have your rocker personality and your cute personality(and i love them both)
I love you no matter what,
eventhough you are not my favourite in Fahrenheit
you still have the same amount of love as all of them!
Finally,
hope you have good health in the coming years
and hope your career will continue to bloom
you should also write some music for Fahrenheit's next album...it will be really cool!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

LOVE PEANUT

Friday, August 21, 2009

报告!

超闲....上来PO一PO文章
看到华文字就知道是要说娱乐圈的时咯
我的娱乐圈就不是是棒棒堂,飞轮海和黑GIRl就是有关TVB的艺人们咯
今天是要来说前面几个(棒棒堂,飞轮海,黑GIRL)近日的近况
棒棒堂先吧
-宣传新专辑“我是传奇”全县签唱会和电视巡回
-参加堂主香港演唱会,担任嘉宾
-棒棒堂王子参与电影《精舞门II》的拍摄。到青岛拍摄,没参加近期的宣传
-被说在香港红馆演唱会咪嘴
-模范棒棒堂停播
-拍摄《说说》MV。 黑GIRL筱婕担任女主角

我想特别强调咪嘴事件
不想说谁批评了他们
也不想进入详细细节
我只想说....
棒棒堂,永远最棒
不管外界或别的艺人批评你们有多烂,有多没实力
都没关系
只要有你们继续存在,
我们粉丝们也会继续存在,为你们加油!
还有....
王子正式向拍电影迈进了!
这是他真正的第一部电影
《爱到底》是友谊客串
现在好像是担任男主角吧?
不是男主角也没关系,
你是我心中永远的男主角
好肉麻哦!哈哈!

飞轮海咯!
-要到广洲举行亚洲巡回演唱会
-成员们各自拍偶像剧。Jiro/Calvin-桃花小妹 Aaron/Calvin-爱似百汇
-Jiro到内地宣传《爱就宅一起》
-代言商品

其实飞飞最近都是各自工作,
很少聚在一起
他们好像那种,
唱片,代言才会聚在一起的团体
别的事件都是各自发展
棒棒也慢慢摇和飞飞一样了
比如王子现在也一个人去拍电影了
天下没有不散的宴会
娱乐圈里,
团体次总会散
各自单飞

说到单飞
到黑GIRL了
-要在香港开演唱会
-出了新书
-鬼鬼单飞
-小蛮没参加活动,怀疑离队

强调小蛮和鬼鬼事件
鬼鬼走了,
看到黑GIRL好像怪怪的
没以前那么的开心,青春活力
但鬼鬼单飞对她的未来有好大的帮助
现在鬼鬼主持节目,在外闯
自己一个人在演艺圈生存,工作
鬼鬼长大了
有时我会怀疑鬼鬼单飞....
是不是为了王子
因为[V]台不允许黑GIRL和棒棒堂在一起
而鬼鬼单飞后,
就可以和王子咯
呵呵,应该是我想太多了吧!无聊...
说到两个团体不能在一起
小蛮就因为和小煜被拍到两人拍拖抽烟而被冷藏
小煜已被解冻
小蛮也应该解冻了吧
但最近没出席活动
据有一个报道说小蛮一离队了
但ANDY哥说小蛮还是黑GIRL的成员
*叹气*虽然不是小蛮的粉丝
但也不希望她离开
希望小蛮早日回来

三个.....啊!惨了!我忘了超克7....惨了惨了!
超克7时7棒们...
最近好像跟师兄棒棒一起为改版专辑做宣传
还有救灾活动
棒棒堂和飞飞也有参与

报告完毕!加油!

BY Peanut

Thursday, August 20, 2009

永远的九妞妞-黑涩会美眉

*叹气*
这个组合,也太多波折了吧
从九个,到八个,到七个,现在面临只剩六个的危机
出道不久
彤彤因为自残,承受太多压力而退团
然后今年七月,组里人气最高的鬼鬼,我的至爱,也单飞了
现在,
小蛮也可能面临退团
我不要啦!!!!
之前小蛮和小煜被冷藏因为有转两人拍拖兼公共抽烟
小煜已回团了
为什么小蛮还没呢?
黑GIRL香港演唱会也没有她
8.8水灾活动也没有她
ANDY哥所代言和广告已被广告商安排好了
所以没小蛮, 很平常
但演唱会没有小蛮
表示她已退团了吗?
*又叹气*
[V]台的艺人真的让我们很担心
希望小蛮可以快点回到黑GIRL
我不要在看到黑GIRL又在少了一位成员
老实说,
黑GIRL真的撑不到多久了
但希望越久越好
毕竟和粉丝们那么多年感情了,包过我在内
好想念鬼鬼和彤彤
她们个有她们的发展
我也会继续支持她们
要加油哦
黑GIRL们,演唱会也要加油咯!
永远的九妞妞们:
大雅,鬼鬼,彤彤,小薰,小蛮,丫头,筱婕,MeiMei和Apple
你们全都是我心中永远的九妞妞
加油!加油!

BY Peanut

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

_ _ _ _ _ troubles with her.....

I don't really want to type her name out but here's a hint,
it rhymes with vegan....yeah you know it!
ok, what if you know the name....you don't even know her
well, this is why i'm here to tell you about her
she is new to our schoo, our year level and our class
she is short, a bit plump and has long hair
she is nice to everyone but....really really nice....
she laughs at what everyone says
and she talks really randomly
once i was saying,
P= me
_ = her

p: i have blocking problems with my subjects
_: Yeah, i really want to make a blog too!

i know she may have heard something wrong there, like blocking and blogging.....but....ok. there is just a hearing mistake there but it is even worst at times.
I do feel sorry for her, because no one at school knows cleary how it feels to be alone without no friends
but sometimes she just gets on my nerves and i like others will somtimes....ignore her
i do feel guilty....i do.....
people at school make fun of her behind her back and at lunch or recess they will shun her out of the circle....or she will be sitting outside the circle
everyone actually knows that it is happening at school, even the exchange students are fooling her
I don't know...i feel the teachers don't favour much of her too
i heard iur work-experience co-ordinarder in pastoral telling her to stop calling the place where she is applying for her work-experience because the people there are getting fed-up
she called 12 times~~!!! 12 times!
i will be really fed-up if i were to recieve her calls 12 times!
I know that she wants to fit in cause she is new to the school but she doesn't know the proper way to do it
im not saying i know the proper way or anything, it's just that she is taking it TOO fast
she doesn't know when she should talk with others and when to just leave them alone.
she cuts your sentences and laugh at basically anything you say...and i'm telling you people hate that
she follows you everywhere and wants you to go with her anywhere
i don't want to reject her at first cause she was new
but now if she ask me if i want to go to the staffroom or IT or anywhere i'll say no
sometimes i'll hesitate but then...yeah no
i'm sorry...
i've tried to be friends with you, we are now like aquaintance
not really close but still talking to each other...when needed.
One of your friends from your old school is coming to the school next term.
why don't you join her,
she will be happy with your company
OH NO....i sound so mean
i don't mean to tell you to like nick off but yeah....
better stop here or it will get worse

BY Peanut

P.S: sorry, it's just my feeling about you....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Glue on hands *sigh*

I better be uick with this post cause it's bedtime and i'm really tired.
but the glue on my hands are slowling me down
i've just finish my only homework for the day
which is doing a poster for legal studies
I have blocking problems for my subject for next year.
i was meant to do human and health development however,
because i think there is not much people doing it so the class is not running
now i have to choose another subject
these are my choices,
physics, art, general B, french and international politics
scratch art and french and gen B out of the way
and i'm still thinking which one to do between physics or int pol
i prefer int pol more.
i'm a mre notetaking type of person plus i fail physics at the start of the year
and i swore i will never ever do physics again
It is hell!
However, physics is a prequsite subject for UNI and int pol is not
so i i do physics i'll get another course choice
what am i gonna do?
i didn't have much time to do some research today because of the workload!
LOL~~~~
i have to tell Mrs Scott tomorrw about my choices
maybe i should ask for and extension
.....well it's not really an assignment or homework, can't really ask for one
*sigh*

BY Peanut

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Taiwan Typhoon Crisis

I finally thought of a topic to talk about so i'm back for another post!
as some of you might know about the typhoon that hit Taiwan a week ago (8/8/09 - the date which i went to camp!)
It has cause much disaster to the country
people have lost their property and even family and friends
hope everyone can give a hand and help them.
A donation or even a prayer
Taiwan have been a part of me since 2 years ago
Because of the obessesion of the entertainment circle over there
I want the country to be safe and sound
another reason is some of my relatives are living over there,
and i don't want them to be in danger
Eventhough we don't meet up that often, they're still relatives
before camp,
i heard about the typhoon about to strike Taiwan
i didn't know that it will be such a big one that cause so many consequences
There will be a charity live show on TV(chinese) tomorrow at 9:30
And i'll be watching that no matter what
Well, seeing the news about the aftermath of the typhoon is really depressing
hope everyone can help out and give them faith

BY Peanut

Back to work

School tomorrow.....
it feels like a new term of school is about to start
and it feels like i just cameback from holidays
Ok, camp isn't going on holidays...it was hell...jokes!
Camp was better than i thought, actually
I stayed up till 3 last night to watch everything i miss over the week on Youtube
...and i still have more to go
i thought of watching MIT tonight but guess not
I've stop watching it since the last holidays
and i was this close to finishing the whole series
seems like it has to wait till the holidays again'!
I was meant to have a French oral test tomorrow
but i haven't study...yet
i'm just gonna have an extension and do it on tuesday
i really couldn't be screw to do it over the weekend when i just came back from camp
I'm so bored....don't feel that tired to go to bed because i slept in today which i do every Sunday
Note to self...don't sleep in on Sundays
but i don't think it will work....lol
everyone will be talking about camp tomorrow...JOY --"
i'm starting to talk crap now
......i'm out of topics! Good night!

P.S i know that was a sudden but i don't really know what to type now....
i just wanted to drop by and say hi and goodnight and i've done that. Job done, mission acomplished! Loveeee

BY Peanut

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday Kevin!
Another year older, another year getting better
Burning Flame III is about to show this coming Monday
You have been the 1st season of it as a cameo and you're now the lead!
You've work hard and have got the best actor award in no time!
Hope your career will continue to bloom and hope you are well!
Once again...
...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Back from Camp

Back from CAMP!!!!
Last camp ever! No more camps
I survived with just a few bruises from bikeriding
ok, let's start from the bikeriding camp
well, i'm a person who won't get use in the change of environment in the first instance
so on the first day....i had a panic breakdown as normal but later on i was alright
on the first day i though we didn't have to bikeride and we just had a briefing or something
but we got to the Halls education centre in Gembrook got our bikes and the instructor said we are going for a 12km bikeride after a brief briefing
i was stunt so on the first day we had a 12km bikeride and i was so sore already after the 1st day
half way of the bikeride on the 1st day i had a cramp and it hurts like hell
when we got to where we are camping for the night, all of us realise that we had bikeride in circles.
I was angry...lol
The boys had a go for another round while us girls just sat there while the instructors go look for a camping spot
we set up our tents at around 5ish and started cooking dinner.
dinner duty was in groups...3 groups that rotate everyday
me, maddie and tash were doing clean-up on the first day so we don't have to do it again.
we ate pasta on the 1st day and it was alright
the next day i couldn't even sit on my bike because my ass hurt and it is not FUNNY!
but i tried my best....well....yeah
we had to ride 16km today
we had stir-fry that night, and it was our turn to prepare and cook
the next day is almost the same distances and i stack today because of the wet ground.
i was a gun going downhill but i told myself not to be proud cause if i'm prund of myself i will definately fall of my bike! No jokes...
for dinner we had spagetti with tomato sauce
so basically we had pasta everynight
and that night in our tent there was a leech! AHHHH!!!! we squish it...well tash just got my torch and squish it eventhough she had hers in her hand! F**k her!
Ok, i don't like Tash and you can see from my language just then
she is a bitch
she doesn't do anything while me and maddie finds a way out to do things
she doesn't clean-up, she doesn't set up or pack up the tents, she tells me to do this and do that and i am so piss of at HER!!!!!! Argh!!!
Oh, and she always wants me to repeat after her and if i don't she annoys me until i do! Screw her!
She also fall in love with the instructor and fully like filrts with him.
He is alright but...you know, it's not right!
Anyways, retreat!
Shared a bunk bed with Nymie and when we got there, after having lunch(sausages with bread) i quickly had a shower
We had retreat session next and Mrs Scott said before the session starts,
if anyone have ipods, phones need to hand them up because you weren't allow to bring them.
i had my ipods and so did some of the other girls who had their phone too and i didn't hand in mine!
REBEL!!! ahahaha!
I sliped it in my bra the whole time in retreat. lol
we watch a movie a night call "Pay it Forward" and it was so depressing at the end...
the boys had thier solo briefing so it was just us girls
the next day at retreat, the boys when on solo.
The girls were so worried, not because of the boys going to be in danger
but because the boys go first, they have to set up their tent and use it first,
um....how do i say this, in yr 10 camp there is a so call "challenge" for the boys and the "challenge" is to get 7.............................
if you get it then....yeah. if you don't get it you don't get it, i'm not going indept
anyway, the girls had their retreat sessions and relax time(we did yoga!) and also solo briefing at night.
at the briefing, everyone was so aggresive.
we weren't allow to bring books, toilletries (just toothbrush and toothpaste, extra food and of course ipods and phones.
what are you going to do for a whole 24 hours....22 hours to be accurate without books or anything
well, i had my ipod with me on solo and i slept the whole time except lunch and dinner.
we were meant to write a letter to ourselves and i did that in the 1st 15 minutes.
and i think i didn't go in to deep and i'm regretting now
the rest was just ipod, sleep and eat
when we were going to our solo spots, which is half an hour away from base camp....
before we turn into the road to all the sites we get blindfolded.
It was so funny because the driver was a guy intructor and if you were from the outside you will see a guy driving a bus full of blindfolded girls
i was site 10 and i still don't know which guy got that site....it was clean(comment/hint about the challenge!)
we get pick up at 8 the next day and we have to pack up our tents.
as i got experience of doing it in bikeriding camp,
i am not good at it
i had to do it for half and hour and it merely fitted in the bag
so we got back to base camp and we had to clean our room, have lunch and i was on duty group to clean up and back home we go!
we watch "The Incredibles" on the bus and i sat beside Grace.R who basically laugh at anything!
That is just a brief overview about camp, don't really want to go much into details because there will be too much to WRITE!
so glad to be home but this will be the last time everyone will be together for 7 days!
Well, i don't miss it though! ahahah!

BY Peanut

Friday, August 7, 2009

Mixed Feelings!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
CAMP! CAMP! TOMORROW!!!!
What am i going to do
i so nervous about camp since i haven't been on camp for about a year now
last one was yr 9 cadet camp in april i think
and i skip the other cadet camp that i was meant to go....about that
anyways, im done packing but it feels like i missed something
i also have this types of feelings even packing my for Malaysia
what am i going to do, i'm stressing out so much
i got my ipod shuffle though...
that's why i'm still up typing this blog caus ei'm loading songs on it
it is so different from the other ipods
you can't charge normally with a charger you have to charge on the computer
and there is all tis instruction to do stuff that you already know how to do on a normal ipod
hmm....when i sync it it says i put to many songs and i've try 3 times to cut down the song load but it seems i have to cut down more
but i want every song....well not every song bu the song i chose in the shuffle.
it's 11:00pm Melbourne time and i have to get up at 5:45 tomorrow morning
and be at school at 7:30....i will be so tired....
i'm going to bed now...
that was a sudden ending, anywayz
GOOD NIGHT!

BY PEANUT

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Just Dropping By...

I using another computer, which is why i'm typing in english
this lsptop doesn't have the program to type in Chinese,
Can't seem to get it working...anyways
mum and dad are now watching tv outside.
they are so obsess now with Taiwan drama...
they always say how much I watch it and laugh to myself and talk about it everyday
now look at them! Ahahaha....
They are now watching the highest rating Taiwan drama "Destiny to Love You" by Joe Chen and Ethan Ruan.
It's a go series and a fresh storyline.
I've just finish packing for camp and while packing mum was just like "hurry up, i want to watch "Destiny To Love You"
I was like "Mum,you told me off when i watch it, now when you are watching it you're still telling me off!"
Dad is also obsess with it.
He doesn't show it on the outside how he is so obsess with it
but everything he does and say to us is all about the series.
It's pretty funny
I'm now downloading Itunes on this laptop because...ok this is a long story.
Now, as you might know, i'm going to camp this saturday which is in a day time
and on camp, i will be bikieriding for 3 and a half days
and going on retreat for 3 and a half days
so overaal the camp is for a week
I'm getting to the point!
Ok, on camp you can't bring phones, ipods blah blah blah
I wasn't planning to bring any of those stuff or breaking any rules
but yesterday while packing (Damn! My internet connection just DC and my Itunes just stop downloading!)
anywayz, yesterday while packing for my retrest bag mum said, why don't you bring your ipod to camp!
I was like NO WAY! it's breaking the rules
i know, i know, i'm an angel ok! ahaha
But i wanted to bring my ipod because no music no life for me
so i told mum...Ok i will bring my ipod however, i have to ipods
one is ipod has a broken screen and a really flat battery tht can only last for 2 days. So nah! not bringing that
and the other one is my only normal functioning one so NAH! not bringing that one too
so mum was like. why don't i get you a new ipod!
i was like WOAH! tht didn't just came out from mum's mouth
and i obediently nodded! hehe.... and i told her to get me a shuffle cause it cost less and there is no screen on it. don't have to worry about anything
so now i'm downloading itunes on this computer because my other computer holds songs more than the space i will get on the shuffle
i don't want to delete songs from my library and don't want songs that i won't have.
So there you go, that is my reason why i'm downloading itunes.
I bet it won't DL today
the wireless connection on this laptop is so poor. No idea why
it will keep DCing
and i think it's happening now! oh god! no please
I'm getting my sleeping bag tomorrow in the city.
I think i'm prepared for this camp. I'm going to be alright....i guess.
It won't be as bad as last time cause I AM PREPARED! Yes, i have to think positive!
i'm also breaking more rules,
i'm bringing food to camp which is not allowed and you know about the Ipod and i'm bringing a aerosol can. OOOHHHHHH
yeah the aerosol can is dry shampoo.
Mum say it's alright. You just spray it on your hair and brush it out.
i won't get to wash my hair which will be like a bird nest and a piece of shit when i come home from camp!
I'm fine with the retreat and the 24 hour solo but not so good on the bikeriding bit.
my butt will hurt after a whole day of bikeriding and i will pull the group down because i am not that fit and can't go well on uphills.
what am i going to do, can't really push up the hill everytime.
Camp is so ridiculous! Camp should be optional! I'm glad this is our last camp! YAY!
no more camp and PE next year! What joy!
Uh....I'm recently addicted to the Vampire Academy Series.
On Shadow Kiss now and i find it really different from the Twilight Saga.
I thought it will be on the same concept but the author made it totally different eventhough it is about vampires.
It's addictive like the Twilight Saga. Lol....i'm all over the vampire books! haha
I better stop here....i'm going to go on for ages!

BY Peanut

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

松了一口气

昨晚,和妈妈为了一件小事而吵架
我们母女俩啊
都平常会为一些小事而大吵
每次都是我开始的
我吵得时候,
会不顾后果
过后才会发现自己真的很后悔
不懂为什么我的脾气会那么差!?
每次我都对自己说,
不要乱发脾气
但我不能控制自己
不懂为什么
我们已经和好了
但我相信一定会有下一次
希望可以避免这些是发生
我会控制自己
希望我们的关系不会因为一件小事
而有变化...

Sunday, August 2, 2009

这个月的节目...还好

心情好低沉哦
这个星期六,
我要去学校举办的露营
我们每年都要去学校安排的露营,去一个星期
今年的露营就是这星期六啦
这露营也是和学校最后一次的露营,值得开心的一件事!
但要去露营,没那个动力
我从没喜欢露营这玩意儿
我喜欢郊外,但不喜欢郊外运动和在郊外过夜
好辛苦啊
每一年的露营都是在冬天时
超冷,每次都会在半夜冷起来,发抖
这次我要骑脚车,3天半
然后静思三天半,静思的那几天有一晚要自己在郊外24小时的静思。
哇~~~你们听起来应该很好玩吧
但我没有那么想
反而觉得特别的痛苦
怎么办呢?!
有时我会跟自己说,嗯,我一定可以过这一关的
过了过后就不用再去啦!
但有时会跟自己说,以往的经验是在太恐怖了,
万一我这样,万一我那样
真的很烦耶!
不管怎样,
过了这关,我就会很开心了
要有‘哪里怕’的精神!
还有‘LogaLoga' 的精神
一定没问题!
加油咯!

回到了原点

30/7 模范棒棒堂已播出了最后一集。
模范棒棒堂已陪伴了我们,三年了
虽然我是在第二年才开始收看节目,
但我对这个节目,比别的粉丝不陌生
每天都会收看,每天都会大力支持
现在因为范范堂主和其他底迪都有很多通告要上
没时间录影
所以节目要停播
没录影不代表是一件坏事
他们有多点休息的时间
充实自己
我其实看了最后一集(其实还有一集还没看啦--")
没有比以前第一届毕业的时候哭得那么惨
可能这次有了心理准备,还有这次有了些以往‘经验’
范范姐,六棒,七棒都还有机会平常看到他们
毕竟已出道了,但一定会比平常少
可是,我最不舍得就是那三军- 虎牙和阿杰
不懂他们以后会怎么样呢?
希望ANDY还有那念头让他们出道,出专辑。
现在,我的生活回到了原点
没有每天收看模范棒棒堂
没有每天大笑,被妈妈用奇怪的眼神看我
也没有每天看到底迪们,堂主和容嘉,小香
我想啊,这可能是要我可以在学业上进步的空间
因为每天都抽一小时收看模范棒棒堂,
少了一个小时读书的时间
明年和后年就是学业上关键的一年
现在多了一个小时读书时间,
学业因该会进步了吧!
那谢谢咯!!!
我会加油的!不会辜负你们!

那天到讨论区的时侯
看到一篇文章
有一位粉丝留意到六棒秘密基地里的歌词
有未知哦!
就是这句的歌词。。
‘有一座秘密的基地,
在这里有欢笑陪你,
就算外星人攻击都不会离去
我挺你挺到底’
翻译:
秘密基地 = 模范棒棒堂
模范棒棒堂就是有欢笑陪我们啊!
外星人攻击 = Welcome外星人的节目代替了模范棒棒堂以往11点的空档
挺你挺到底 = 粉丝一定永远挺你们的哦!

小杰写词是会预知哦!
好神哦!

BY Peanut

Thursday, July 16, 2009

18爱不爱

未成年的爱情是必要的吗?
但我们够成熟去爱一个人吗?
每天做在巴士上,都听到不同年级的同学们
分分离离,
朋友们都哭啼连天,被爱情受伤
这是不成熟的行为,还是是爱情必经历的磨练吗?
虽然爱情,是有分有离,
但未成年爱情的分离速度,会不会太快呢?
不到一年就分开,不到半年又有新对象,又不到几个月又分离
到底未成年可以很成熟的面对爱情,对待伴侣?
有些未成年连学业要搞不定,哪里有资格去谈恋爱...
初恋一定要在每成年时实现吗?
现代的未成年,
小学就有初恋了
甚至有些幼儿园的学生都谈过恋爱。
恋爱,
会影响学业吗?
会是未成年,
吵架,
失败,
压力过大
....死亡的原因吗?

但未成年的爱情
也有好处...
未成年的爱情,
是磨练爱情的经验,
所以可以让成年后的恋爱顺顺利利?
未成年的爱情,
可以让童年的回忆,
多姿多彩采,开开心心
未成年的爱情,
也可帮未成年消除压力,
有人时时刻刻在旁支持,加油。

那未成年的爱情,
是好还是坏?
这个问题....
应该只能用自己的判断或经验,
找出答案...

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18爱不爱-翼势力&企鹅

第18根蜡烛吹熄以后
确定对你说
爱上你微笑的酒窝
你是心中的第三个愿望
不能说
期待明天变成亲密朋友
关于爱的种种
猜不透
害怕弄巧成拙
hello
不要想太多
当时机成熟
光明正大手牵手
爱不爱都想要和你
天天搅和
拍大头贴逛渔人码头
荷尔蒙
哈~~~蠢蠢欲动
爱不爱心思特别多
毫不保留
写满了爱的部落格
18岁
最适合
恋爱
蜡烛吹熄后深深探索你的美丽
放手一博决定追你到底
不管结局会不会赢得胜利
不用觉得在意不用想着是否畏缩逃避
不管怎么想不管怎么想
wo 爱情魔力天天增加威力
让我失去理性无法控制自己
请让我下半辈子一直和你甜蜜在一起
你是心中的第三个愿望
不能说
期待明天变成亲密朋友
关于爱的种种
猜不透
害怕弄巧成拙
hello
不要想太多
当时机成熟
光明正大手牵手
爱不爱都想要和你
天天搅和
拍大头贴逛渔人码头
荷尔蒙
哈~~~蠢蠢欲动
爱不爱心思特别多
毫不保留
写满了爱的部落格
18岁
最适合
恋爱
爱不爱都想要和你
天天搅和
拍大头贴逛渔人码头
荷尔蒙
哈~~~蠢蠢欲动
爱不爱心思特别多
毫不保留
写满了爱的部落格
18岁
最适合
恋爱

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

模范棒棒堂的约定。。。

约定:

希望这次的离开时暂时的,我们知道,终有一天,底迪们和堂主会再聚在一起,一起在创造传奇,带给我们换了。这是我们的秘密基地,就算外星人攻击也不会离去!!!


“我们之间,
不会有改变
相同的起点
一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间
转了一大圈
相同的终点
会发现
所有的心愿
会实现~”

“有一座秘密的基地
在这里不需要言语
那些不好对别人说的事情
我为你搞定
有一座秘密的基地
在这里有欢笑陪你
就算外星人攻击
也不会离去~”

“只要有你在我身旁
陪我一起闯荡
我就什么都不怕
只有你懂我的想法
默契不用加装
你就是我的翅膀
就算未来不安剧本的步调赶场
NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO
I WILL GO WITH YOU
WANNA BE WITH YOU~”

“Lollipop,胆量比谁都大
伙伴在身旁
哪里怕
纽约东京北京埃及
勇气零时差
Lollipop,决心比谁都大
用生命探索
哪里怕
汗水泪水不停蒸发
梦想在眼见发着光
Lollipop,梦想比谁都大
失败不退缩
哪里怕
冒险犯难勇往直前
傻瓜哲学家
Lollipop,心脏比谁都大
就算天塌下来都不怕
奋战到底相信自己
梦想在眼前发着光
不一样的节奏(Lollipop的精神从不害怕犯去错)
不一样的承诺(lollipop的精神从不失去自我)
不一样的我真实的感动(lollipop的精神从不放弃追求)
撼动着我不懦弱(lollipop的精神 lollipop~哟~哪里怕~哪里怕”

"沿途有人退出(看远方天空乌云有了缺口)
有人继续坚持(雨过天晴后梦想不停闪烁)
梦想巴士载着我们向下站遨游(交出你的手跟着我一起走)
让梦想发光照亮我们的方向
旅途很漫长穿越过无数心墙
眼角的泪光我们成长的力量
挺起了胸膛夥伴们一起去闯"

"随时都有人等着嘲笑我们
随时都有人看不习惯我们
我们会尊重所有你们的声音
但请你们要仔细地聆听
我爱棒棒堂
吼吼吼吼吼吼吼
要勇敢面对这一切的危机
我会尽全力化危机会转机
努力创造自己的奇迹
头破血流也没关系
我爱棒棒堂
吼吼吼吼吼吼吼"

"now 突然停止胡闹玩笑都变得重要
人生不是刚刚才挂号怎黱就要段考
怎黱就要思考
胸前的v是我的符号牛仔裤当作战袍
梦想号不用燃料用勇气便能起跑
准备好放手play now!play now!"

"你写的一字一句我全都紧记在心
不要说走就走没留下讯息
没有你的世界我不懂快乐有多容易
在这少了你的交换日记只剩我孤单在结局"

"撑上披肩穿上皮靴诠释我们的誓言
抖动关节换上装备舞出我们的世界
挑战极限努力实践传说就再次出现
耶耶耶耶耶耶耶~~"

"第一分钟换上一身的劲装
第二分钟加上犀利的眼光
十万电力火光有谁能抵抗
三分钟变身耀眼光芒
never give up the competition
i'll keep on buming with passion
who can stop my revolution"

"loga loga loga loga
相信自己正在发光
loga loga loga loga
撑到最后才是赢家"

"好想听你说说爱我好想听你说说想我
这些年你有没有曾经想起过我
好想对你说说爱你好想对你说说想你
这些年你知不知脑袋里装的全都是你全都是你
诉说着我的感受心里话全说出口
听你说说多爱我听你说说想我
谢谢你曾经陪着我说着我们幸福的经过"

"不断超越极限去证明我是谁
不向失败妥协击退所有考验
我已经做好准备撑过下一个交点
k.o.这一切冲破封锁线"

"为何要在放开手后才知道痛
一起共筑的美梦
如今全都被寂寞给没收
只有你可以给我最美的感动
我愿意从头来过别让我在思念逗留"

"跟我做自己虽然我不对拍
但这不就是种态度
跟着我的tempo 跟着我的tempo
hey hey hey hey!!
继续跳别停住
开心的节拍再重覆
跟着我的tempo 跟着我的tempo
yeah yeah yeah yeah !"

"123啦啦啦456,78 go
日综艺终身综艺咖
陪着你欢乐到底 yeah hey yo"

"我很害怕这最吵闹的沉默
会触动了你和我
最难过和孤单的时候
多年以后该不该说出口
那短暂的等候其实留下伤口
我很害怕这最吵闹的沉默
会失去了你和我
最真诚和快乐的感动
多年以后该不该说出口
当初的不成熟会让彼此都不好受
所以放手"

"让我牵你的手迎着风向前奔跑
花朵瞬间绽放那一秒爱就来到
你一头栽进我的怀抱
就像小孩一般胡闹
画面美的出乎意料"

"来不及回那一天
我们相遇的季节
曾经一起美好的画面
如今却消失不见
来不及说的明天
对我们都太珍贵
就让时间冲淡这一切
把眼泪全藏在心里面"

"呼呼哈呼哈
我们就是武林高手
呼呼哈呼哈
我们的倔强藏在背后
呼呼哈呼哈
我们就是武林高手
呼呼哈呼哈
我们都是英雄"

"Say Yes接受邀请
陌生或收悉我们
通通欢迎
Welcome谁都可以
随着快乐的痕迹踏上阶梯
下一秒天和地
零距离"

”雨刚下过
这一个夏天变得特别闷热
当你微笑看着我
那时候
世界突然简静世止一分多钟
那一个moment怎么去形容
爱情就好像玛琪朵"

”baby i want to love you hold you
想和你一起躺在沙滩
静静地靠在我的肩膀
有什么突破就在summer time
一起冲浪一起看月亮
一起在海边散布鲜花
这个夏天我只想要你陪在我身旁"

"看看你怎么会傻不隆咚
这一次勇敢把手给我
因为只有我能够让你
做什么看什么玩什么都是我"

三年的欢乐结束了....

今天模范棒棒堂正式宣布停播,录影最后一集。
现在心情好复杂。。
不懂事一件好还是不好的事
好的方面呢,就是底迪们不用那么辛苦了
底迪们也有除了录影以外的工作要去,
六棒要做宣传和排练演唱会的细节
七棒们也要为专辑宣传
节目停了,底迪们不用两边跑
那么辛苦。
还有不用别节目效果,而被破坏名誉
我也可以不用每天追节目
专心读书,休息,陪家人。
这都是好的想法,但。。。
三军呢?他们什么都不需要宣传。
他们只有靠节目宣传自己
让世界各地的人看见他们的表现
但如今,三军还没出道,
也还缺少3位男孩的加入
节目怎么可以说停就停呢?
三军们怎么能表现自己呢?
是否ANDY哥已放弃组三军的念头呢?
我不是很介意六棒和七棒离开节目,
应为毕竟他们已出道了,
还有很多工作等着他们
可是三军就不同啊
模范棒棒堂不是明星养成班吗?
三军还没出道,有资格刘在节目,
但机会也没有,节目就停播了。
还有,模范棒棒堂是我们粉丝,底迪们和堂主的秘密基地
"在这里有欢笑陪你"。。。
模范棒棒堂是我看过最快乐的地方
"就算外星人攻击也不会离去"
我试过,因为考试的问题
而逼自己读书,不看模范棒棒堂。
虽然考试成绩好,
但我已差不多没看节目1个月多
就整个人很无精打彩,假开心,心情低落。
考完后,
第一个念头就是收看模范棒棒堂
看了我心情超开心,超兴奋的
我会想
为什么我以前都没有留意到这个节目
我也会想
为什么我以前都没有发现有底迪们的存在,甚至有一时讨厌过棒棒堂,
觉得他们好自大,说他们都不帅,竟然敢叫自己王子。。。
我还记得第一次喜欢他们,是看了一则娱乐新闻,
看到他们去香港, 唱了YES!这首歌。
"Say Yes 接受邀请, 陌生或收悉我们,通通欢迎"
我接受了他们的邀请
看了他们和黑涩会美眉们的偶像剧"黑糖玛琪朵"
我爱上他们了。。。
喜欢了我以前说很自大的王子,喜欢他迷人的眼睛。。。
喜欢了我说过只有他在棒棒堂里最帅的小杰,喜欢他的创作。。。
喜欢了大耳朵的敖犬,喜欢他的无厘头。。。
喜欢了Rocker的小煜,喜欢他忧郁,帅气的性格。。。
喜欢了阳光的威廉,喜欢他开朗的态度和“融化你的心魔”的笑容。。。
最后,也喜欢了综艺咖的阿纬,喜欢他冷到爆的笑点。。。
然后就每天收看了模范棒棒堂
认识了其他底迪们,
虽然不是一开始就收看这节目,
但我已尽力的了解以往和现在节目的状况。
不到几个月,
歌听得都是棒棒堂
看的都是模范棒棒堂
生活的确变得更开心
但到了08年9月,
[V]台说,
第一届底迪全都要‘毕业’。。离开节目
Andy哥说是应为节目没有新鲜感,收视率低
所以节目要改版
底迪们离开时
我好伤心
不懂未来会怎么样
第二届底迪加入模范棒棒堂,
我没收看了,除了如果有第一届底迪代班或当嘉宾
半年后,[V]台又说,要选三军
最后选了阿杰和虎牙
其他底迪就离开了模范棒棒堂。
[V]说叫底迪离开又是应为收视率没有想像中好,
ANDY哥就叫回第一届底迪们,三代同堂
六棒,七棒和新的两位三军
听到这个消息,
超开心的,也觉得,
模范棒棒堂,经历了那么多波折,
应该这次回稳定下来了吧
但现在,三代同代不到半年,
就说要停播了。
天下没有不散的宴会,
这一天总是要来临
但不知会来的那么快。
以后的日子,
虽然会不开心,
但也希望底迪们,堂主都可以继续追求自己的梦想
时间过得好快,
我想在这边说,
谢谢让我认识了他们
虽然会觉得追星很傻,很辛苦,尤其是[V]台的明星们
但还是要说谢谢
最后一集就在这个星期五播出,
我知道我会哭,
但这些眼泪都是感动,开心的眼泪
因为,这个节目
模范棒棒堂,创造了传奇
底迪们,模仿棒棒堂,
永远是我们的秘密基地,
永远不退堂

“我们之间
不会有改变
相同的起点
一瞬间,
变成了乐园
我们之间
转了一大圈
相同的终点
会发现
所有的心愿
会发现~”

加油!加油!