Since September last year
my whole life ....
completely changed
Well everyone knows about
me being obsess with Jaki ♥
In September, I met some people over the internet
cause we ♥ Jaki, that was how we met
so we became really close
like really really close
However physically we are so far apart
different countries, different time zone
But there is just this odd one
we spent time most together
however, she is such a fragile child
She has cancer, fighting with it
and her dad died 3 years ago of a work accident
and she has low self-esteem
I just wish that I could cuddle her
and let her cry in my shoulders
however, she is a strong girl
she wants to be brave
and face her world
we had so much memories in such a short time
we went through alot
however, time changes
now we are so cold to each other
not like before
we don't chat much
we don't know each other much
and she found a new "friend"
and I admit
I'm jealous
Who ruin this relationship?
Me?
Everytime we fight,
the reason was always me doing something wrong
or saying something wrong
and true, sometimes I read back the comments I wrote
I think I went too over
but sometimes I question,
did she ever questioned herself why would I write those comments?
I told her before
I'm so jealous at literally anything
Like I want her to be mine
not in a lover's why
OBVIOUSLY!
I just want a true best friend
but I know I can't stop people from socialising
hmm...
I thought I could ....
Then I realize
our secrets
were never secrets
our everything
wasn't ours
These few months
we are having a cold war period
well, she's not
just me
and this few days,
I couldn't even be bother to go on the internet
cause I don't want to face reality
I have to much to face in this real world
that + the internet world
I won't be able to handle it
Since I've Been Gone....
By nothingbutpurely Pearly
