Love Pearly

This is SOOOOOOOOOO suspicious

I'm actually not sure what is happening

FOR ONCE

are they together

or

were they together?

did they just break up?

cause by what i just investigate

*haha sounds like a detective! xD*

it seems that they broke up

ok...it didn't really state that it was them

but...for some reason

I can't announce where thia evidence comes from

*i'm acting weird today? Inspector PEARLY!*

it also seems like they haven't ACTUALLY

got together

and now they "broke up"

hmmm....

i shouldn't be happy

that is just a bad thing to do

but

i just told mum and his mum about it

if he finds out that i told them he has a GF

he is going to KILL me

obviously I DIDN"T INTEND TO TELL

but...

i had to act infront of them

that i don't have any particular feelings towards

HIM

if they knew...

I don't know what is going to happen

sometimes i worry too much

NOBODY in this world knows this secret

and you don't either

because you don't know the main point of the whole secret

or you will be pointing and giving me the greasy

*sigh*

when the feeling comes

it comes

nobody can stop it

no matter how hard you try

you just can't fling it off

I wish

i had that courage

to...

speak out my feelings

even not to him

to a friend

or someone else

but nobody in my live

have my trust to know this secret

NOBODY

except him

but if i tell him

everything will go loose

he is my only 'friend' i trust

he gives me that special warmth

he is always there..

well he WAS always there

not now

how far apart are we???

Physically....

3000000km away (approx plus exaggerated there)

Mentally....

a distance that only time can heal

we haven't talk for ages

we haven't seen each other for ages

i just wish

he can fly over

but no....

it will never happen....

ever again

i get to go back every 6 months

so what?

we never meet up

a 2 weeks period

we will only see each other for 2 days

and then....

in those 2 days

we will never talk

we are really weird right?

I

SO BADLY WANT TO SAY IT OUT NOW

but why can't i do it?

he did it

why not me?

why can't we watch the sunrise again if we failled the first time?

why can't we play hide and seek again even if we had grown?

why can't we sleep in the same room again and talk till we fall asleep?

why can't we share one headphone again where we sing to our favourite songs?

why can't we watch a movie together again and comment on it after?

why can't you?

I can

but why can't you!!!!!!!!!!!!

why.....

everything in my life consists of you

nothing...

i meant NOTHING

I talk about, doesn't concern you

I change myself just because of you

I don't wear does dorky pants anymore

I cut my hair so it doesn't look like a bush

I wear stuff that you love

I listen to everything you say

but do you?

I try so hard to change

but it always fail

I go to your profile EVERYDAY

I miss you...

craving for you to talk to me

to care about me

but do you?

I really don't care anymore

everynight

i think about you

and i will cry

cause no matter how hard i try

we will never be together

you treat me as a sister

and i should treat you as a brother too

but i can't

and there is more to it.....

isn't that what happens when guys treat girls to good?

we girls tend to fall in love with them

but the guy just treats us like sisters

you...

one year older then me

fate brought us together

but fate also brought us apart

by........extending our relationship to another level

when we were born

i never expect anything

but i just want you to know

that

you will always have someone behind your back

happy or sad

i'll be there

trust me

cause i trust you

If you are actually reading this

please don't feel stress

I don't have any expectations from you

I just wanted you to know....

LOVE PEARLY