Another EPIC FAIL

:'(

I fail once again

I tired so hard

but

in the end

I get nothing

I feel shit now

Am i cursed

that no one will ever love me?

no one?

so what if I love someone

it doesn't make a difference

they don't love you

you can't do anything about it

the worse thing is

he loves someone you know

and you feel even worse

wanna hear about it?

he won't find it here

anyway....

I was trying to forget 'him'

so i try to socialise more at school

then a new girl came to school

so we became friends

and we join "the boys"

and I admit

I do have a "thing" for one of them

but I knew i won't be me

I knew that relationship was coming

I can't deny it

whenever we sit at recess an lunch

both of them will be together

one time

she ask him for icecream

but he doesn't want to buy it for her

so he went off and brought his icecream

he came back with a spoon and a icecream

he was like

"give me your hand"

and he cut the icypole into two and gave it to her

he didn't even ask me

he was

"just not much into you...."

i try and try

but it didn't work

I also want to admit that

i wanted him to be my partner for formal

oh well...

there goes another chance....

gone

long gone.

I just know they were going out today

through fb

and i wrote my status

"i wish it was me"

less then a minute

he talked to me through fb chat

and ask

"what does it mean"

adding

"i wanna know"

I answered

"it doesn't concern you...."

adding a

"LOL"

to it.

obviously it concerns you...

but i can't do anything about it

did he knew about my feelings towards him

i mean...

why would he urge me to tell him what my status was refering to?

I had that sense of hope

but it was gone after he ask about their relationship problems

he was saying that

"her parents dislike me"

and i laughed

and replied

"cause you're weird"

and that was the truth

he ask me how to make them "like him"

i replied

"time"

and maybe

that's what i need

TIME

By Pearly

I'm so glad to be back

where i belong

and will always belong

it feels like I been on a long holiday

and now i'm back home!

AGAIN!

Year 11 is draining me

what am i going to do in yr 12....

OMG

i haven't told you about my legal sac and bio test right?

Guess what!

I got 39 0ut of 40 on my legal sac

I can't believe it either

i mean

i did my 10 marker at the last ten minutes

and i got a 9 out of 10

and that was were the 1 mark was lost

but mr parker say the sac is getting scale up

so i'm getting a 100%

*GASP*

and my bio test

90%

i got 57% on the last one!

Ok i studied!

for once

i'm proud of myself

however

that doesn't prove that i can survive through yr 12

no it doesn't prove that!

:(

anyway

i better go to bed...

it's late now

BY PEARLY

Never ever knew that this was coming

Never ever knew that it was gone so fast

Life comes and go

I missed my chance

It will never come back again

Why not let it fall in the others hands

Let them have a chance

And don't regret like me

Happy Birthday....

my long lost chance

By Pearly

DON'T GIVE ME THIS S**T ANYMORE

I DON'T DESERVE IT

I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO

THEN CARING MUCH ABOUT YOU

CAUSE YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME

SO

IF YOU DECIDED TO LEAVE

THEN DON'T EVER COME BACK

I'M NOT YOUR PUPPET

I ONCE WAS

BUT NOW I'M NOT FOOLED INTO BEING ONE AGAIN

BY PEARLY

Yes...I'm desperate

one more week and its the holidays

i can't wait anymore

but i have to wait for another week

and it will be the worst week ever

house aths day on monday

bio test on tuesday

legal sac on thrusday

maths test on friday

and i think i just failed my english essay test on Friday :(

to make it worst

i haven't done anything today

but shopping

and spending loads of money

what am i gonna do

is anyone there willing to be me for a week

i'll pay!

anyone?

i'm lonely

where is everyone?

WHERE THE HELL IS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

BY PEARLY

Short and Brief

for the day

JEALOUSY STRIKES BACK!

By a JEALOUS PEARLY

Love Pearly

This is SOOOOOOOOOO suspicious

I'm actually not sure what is happening

FOR ONCE

are they together

or

were they together?

did they just break up?

cause by what i just investigate

*haha sounds like a detective! xD*

it seems that they broke up

ok...it didn't really state that it was them

but...for some reason

I can't announce where thia evidence comes from

*i'm acting weird today? Inspector PEARLY!*

it also seems like they haven't ACTUALLY

got together

and now they "broke up"

hmmm....

i shouldn't be happy

that is just a bad thing to do

but

i just told mum and his mum about it

if he finds out that i told them he has a GF

he is going to KILL me

obviously I DIDN"T INTEND TO TELL

but...

i had to act infront of them

that i don't have any particular feelings towards

HIM

if they knew...

I don't know what is going to happen

sometimes i worry too much

NOBODY in this world knows this secret

and you don't either

because you don't know the main point of the whole secret

or you will be pointing and giving me the greasy

*sigh*

when the feeling comes

it comes

nobody can stop it

no matter how hard you try

you just can't fling it off

I wish

i had that courage

to...

speak out my feelings

even not to him

to a friend

or someone else

but nobody in my live

have my trust to know this secret

NOBODY

except him

but if i tell him

everything will go loose

he is my only 'friend' i trust

he gives me that special warmth

he is always there..

well he WAS always there

not now

how far apart are we???

Physically....

3000000km away (approx plus exaggerated there)

Mentally....

a distance that only time can heal

we haven't talk for ages

we haven't seen each other for ages

i just wish

he can fly over

but no....

it will never happen....

ever again

i get to go back every 6 months

so what?

we never meet up

a 2 weeks period

we will only see each other for 2 days

and then....

in those 2 days

we will never talk

we are really weird right?

I

SO BADLY WANT TO SAY IT OUT NOW

but why can't i do it?

he did it

why not me?

why can't we watch the sunrise again if we failled the first time?

why can't we play hide and seek again even if we had grown?

why can't we sleep in the same room again and talk till we fall asleep?

why can't we share one headphone again where we sing to our favourite songs?

why can't we watch a movie together again and comment on it after?

why can't you?

I can

but why can't you!!!!!!!!!!!!

why.....

everything in my life consists of you

nothing...

i meant NOTHING

I talk about, doesn't concern you

I change myself just because of you

I don't wear does dorky pants anymore

I cut my hair so it doesn't look like a bush

I wear stuff that you love

I listen to everything you say

but do you?

I try so hard to change

but it always fail

I go to your profile EVERYDAY

I miss you...

craving for you to talk to me

to care about me

but do you?

I really don't care anymore

everynight

i think about you

and i will cry

cause no matter how hard i try

we will never be together

you treat me as a sister

and i should treat you as a brother too

but i can't

and there is more to it.....

isn't that what happens when guys treat girls to good?

we girls tend to fall in love with them

but the guy just treats us like sisters

you...

one year older then me

fate brought us together

but fate also brought us apart

by........extending our relationship to another level

when we were born

i never expect anything

but i just want you to know

that

you will always have someone behind your back

happy or sad

i'll be there

trust me

cause i trust you

If you are actually reading this

please don't feel stress

I don't have any expectations from you

I just wanted you to know....

LOVE PEARLY

PAsSEd!

WUHU!

He passed his exams!

My cousin i'm talking about

ahaha....his in Malaysia by the way

and the exam that he passed is simillar to the VCE exam

so like determing what course you can take

difference is there is no enter or study score

but rank with distinction/credit...

and the list goes on

and he passed for what the course requires!

His studying interior design

sounds good to me!

he can design my house in the future then

with no COST!

ahahah

anyway

I'm going to Geelong for saturday sport tomorrow

i have to be at school at 8:30

and get back at 2:30

:(

but it will be fun

caitie said she will make it fun

AND I TRUST HER

teehee

OMG!

My legal sac has been moved to next next THRUSDAY

happy me!

it was meant to be this coming wednesday

but mr parker said

"for some particular reason"

it had to be moved to another date!

First it was moved to next next wednesday

but cause the sac is 80min long

and out class is last period

we will have to stay after school to finish it

so he say he don't want us to do that

we had aths day on monday

so can't do it on monday

and we don't have legal on tuesday

so we're doing it on THRUSDAY

we were actually going to change it AGAIN

cause Courtney is not here for the whole next nesxt week

cause of a horse event

but we didn't

:(

but i'm still glad it's moved later

Mr Parker said this is the hardest sac

and if you get this

you will be fine for the rest!

I HAVE TO WORK HARD!

KAMBATEH!

hehehe

BY PEARLY

P.S: I Love YOu!

P.S.S It was a good book!

Ok i know it is an old book

call me outdate or anything

but i still love it! ^^

GOOD DAY' MATE

LOL!

AUSSIE MATE!

Anyway...

I have a physics test tomorrow!

BUT I'M PUMP FOR IT

BRING IT ON !

YEAH!

We get to bring in 1/2 a page of cheat sheet

one-sided

mine is so full on!

and it's not even done yet!

ahahahha

I'll try to fit every blank spot i can find!

then i'll be fine!

TEE HEE!

I have a sac next week and my english essay is due

:(

and guess what!

I'M GOING TO GEELONG THIS WEEKEND....

for saturday sport!

Isn't that fun?

2 hour drive!

WUHU! NOT

A waste of my time :(

could have a chance to do some homework!

*sigh*

My spare glasses are not really that comfortable

the nose-pad on my glasses is pinching my nose so much

and it feels like my nose is bruise!

OUCH!

I'm watching TV now!

Relaxation time!

BY PEARLY

P.S : aren't my PJs cool! ^^

My glasses is snapped into half

and it was my favourite!


I hate life now

:/

Ok...here is what happened

Me, grace and the other grace

were hanging out with

mackenzie, jodie and jarrod

so as usual...

we got a basketball with us

and they say jokes about grace

anyway

that's not important

so as usual again

they won't let us play with the ball

so us girls have to SNATCH it from them

well....that was what we call fun

so we were snatching it

and we all (GIRLS I MEANT!) fall onto the ground

and the ball when flying behind us

I was still sitting on the ground

and Jodie went to get the ball

and he threw it from behind

and hit me straight in the face

and my glasses snap into half

THE END

Ok....i cried!

well it hurts plus when i saw my glasses snapped

i cried even harder

i love them so much

*sigh*

i'm not having a good day...am i?

we tried using tape to fix it


it didn't work

so we tried going to Mr Whitechurch to use the superglue

and it didn't work again

So i had to go home

i can't see without them!

now i'm wearing my spares

I miss my old glasses already!

WAHHHHHHHHHH

At least i can get new glasses!

LOL!

BY PEARLY

Isn't this great!

LOL! :)

My first picture of me on my blog

OK...no more mystery now

FACES of me

is coming on every post now!

I'm a cam whore for your information

so please don't puke

ahahaha

anyway

today is labour day holiday!

which means NO SCHOOL
but also means

LONG WEEKEND HOMEWORK

:(

I've been doing homework all day today

BUT

yesterday night

we watch 4 episodes

"My Queen"

"败犬女王"

I know

How outdate am i

it's like a 2009 series

and i haven't even finish watching it

but i'll finish it soon!

have like....4 episodes to go!

and i'm done!

YAY!

I did bio homework the whole day today

stayed home

and it was pouring today again

if you haven't notice

it's all over the news

around the world

that Melbourne is flooding

and there is hails as big as my fist

would you believe that!

teehee :)

BY PEARLY

P.S

Wanted to take more photos but no battery left on my camera

*sigh*

how much i wanted you guys to look at my biology homwork

and how much you guys wanted to look at it.

TOO BAD THEN!

LOL!

PROBLEM SOLVED!

The moment i woke up

The problem was solve

The dream solve my problem

Now i feel so light

I'm so hapy and bubbly

I understand now

that no matter who or what

you love

I'll always be there for you

supporting you

Me and you = no chance

however

I'll be there when you need me

We are going to have a fun

at the end of this month

and I hope it will be a memorable one

cause it could be our last days together!

^^

Well hope you and her have a nice day

and hope you guys really get together on you birthday

which is like....

in 2 weeks time

aren't you two suppose to be together

like ages ago

why is your relationship status still "SINGLE"

don't like that! XD

*sigh*

eventhough i will be jealous and sad

I still wish that you can be happy

LAUGH

and not

SMILE

*in joke*

:)

By: A PROBLEM SOLVED pearly

P.S

Regret?

I'm regretting once again

Reunion is back on

and i'm won't be able to attend

i'm in Melbourne

and i won't be home till 27th

plus i'll only stay three days in Malaysia

and i'm flying to Japan

i'm not expecting them to do anything

i just feel jealous

that all of them can attend and meet each other

while i can't do anything but just maybe...

look at the pictures and post of the reunion

i don't know

i feel i wasn't actually that popular in class

nobody cares about me

well..that is basically how my whole life has been

it's my problem isn't it?

*sigh*

now my life is so...out of order

i only study and study

haven't had much entertainment since Yr 11 started

but no matter how much i study

i don't get good results in the end

:(

what am i going to do?

BY Pearly

SICK!!!! @.@

I'M SICK

I had a sore throat on friday

runny nose/fever on saturday

cold on sunday

and it's worst today!

UHHHHH

I am so cranky when i am sick

so don't come bothering me!

I getting a day off tomorrow

well....it's house swimming sports tomorrow

i wanted to go

but now...

i can't

plus i can't swim!

YEAH

laugh....i can't swim

and i lost my voice

no point me going if i can't cheer

well...

even though participation will earn a point to the house

i mean CEEBS

as if i can be bother

at least i'm staying home

having a rest

and catching up on homework!

Isn't that a good idea

I have to say

that VCE corridor is seriously CONTAGIOUS

i mean NO ONE was here

everyone was freaking sick

including me!

everyone has a cold

i think there is too much stress

LOL

EXCUSES! *ahem*

getting another tissue

this one is FERAL!

anyway....

i better be doing homework now

or else i won't be able to finish it tomorrow!

BY: a sick PEARLY