.....

I"m sitting here,
listening to this phone call mum is making
aruguing....
it finally struck...
i could here the other voice from the other end of the phone....
mum...looking at me with those red eyes
saying that next year....we are not coming back to Malaysia anymore..
why can this happen?
why would this happen?
i really want to cry my eyes out but not in front of mum....
i don't know.......

BY Peanut

我愿意当你的~分身情人

分身情人~魏晨

看你为谁苦闷
我就集中精神
清理心情灰尘
赶走悲伤气氛
听你开朗笑声
吻住我的灵魂
好想陪你狂喜
分担你的闷

没有特异功能
是你激发潜能
才能无时不刻
拦截你的心疼
不要笑我的笨
想法都很单纯
不是超人却想为你变成万能

想做你的分身情人
守在每个精彩过程
直到有天
你会心痛我的心疼

把我当作分身情人
翻倍感受你的苦乐
幸福在不同场景记录着我们
只能有我们

不要笑我太愚笨
想法都那么单纯
想做你的分身情人
守在每个精彩过程

是遥不可及的恋人
却在每个精彩过程
直到有天
你会心痛我的心疼

把我当作分身情人
翻倍感受你的苦乐
幸福在不同场景记录着我们
只能有我们

Time can really change anything

Why is there day and night?
it just makes life more tiring
seeing one day go by so quickly
why is there clocks and watches to tell us when the day will finish?
it just makes life less interesting
this saturday is the mooncake festival
this is a festival where us chinese will celebrate
the reason>?
not quite sure eventhough i have ben celebrating it for the pass 15 years
we eat mooncakes and light lanterns and candles....
most importanly....it's a day for everyone in the family to come together to celebrate.
for the pass 4 years,
i haven't been able to celebrate this wonderful festival,
but this year,
i can but it won't be a memorable one
in this year,
our family hasn't got on really well....
well, it hasn't always been
everytime we come home from melbourne,
there will be some family problems...big or small
it just makes me more confuse why a family wants to argue with each other
this will only make everyone in a awkward position
now, our family are experiencing these awkwardness.
this person is mad at this person and that person is angry at that person
just because of something small
it can be solved easily
however, they choose the hard way out by ignoring each other
not talking to each other, not seeing each other?
why the fuss?
everyone is a family....
this mooncake festival....won't be a happy one
it will just be a disaster
mum is celebrating it on friday as we had another dinner at my father's side on the real day
at my dad's side, it's a whole story.
nobody argues....if they do they will laugh it off and be good to each other again
i'm not that close to that side of my family,
but whenever i see them,
they are always talking to each other, smiling and laughing.
at my mum's side...eventhough you see them laugh
you could feel that in their heart, they are not thinking the same thing as their facial experssion presents.
i thought this would be a fun day,
but the family...the person won't be coming.....
i know it...
they haven't step into this house for the last past month because they had an argument with grandma...
for what reason, i don't know and don't ever want to know
but i feel so tired from all this avoiding
we can't do whatever we want...we always can't do whatever we want
time really can change everything...no matter how strong the relationship
even parents and child or brothers and sisters, friends or even partners
you see people loving each other but with a blink of the eye,
you see them seperate and ignoring each other
i really....really hope that this mooncake festival can bring everyone together
hope that everyone can see down and talk through this whole thing
sort things out....
if it doesn't work....
it will just be that none of them will come
or
it will turn into a bigger argument or even worst
this hole will never ever be able to be repaired again...
never ever...'

BY Peanut

Malaysia

Been in Malaysia for 2 days now

It's been alright

Have so many places to go

And I woke up really early these few days

But when to bed late these few days too

Just went to watch G-force just then

And I nearly fall asleep

It's not that the movie is bad

It was actually really good

I was just too tired

However,

If i have my laptop

I don't have that sleepy feeling

Well…not really

I'm a bit "OFF" now

I feel so uh…..

I don't know….

You sometimes have those feelings

You don't want to talk to anyone

Don't want to see anyone

You just want to be alone….by yourself

In your room

Listening to music

Or just laying down on the bed

That is what I'm doing now.

Malaysia….

HOT!

Really hot!

Maybe I'm used to the cold more now so I'm not used to the humidness and hotness

ALSO

I've been eating SOOOOOOOOOOO much

That I can't fit anymore into me….

Until tomorrow!!!! Ahahahaha

Anyway, we eat like every 3 hours

Which is really bad

No wonder everyone looks bigger to me…(LOL!)

I'm having fun with my new Nintendo DSi

Need to buy some games

Or I'll be so bored!

It's black and I love it!

I finally got it! YEAH!

J

BY Peanut

Doing what?!!! Nothing....

uh, i'm here doing nothing
nearly going off to lala land
today I have nothing to do here at work expererience
they are having lessons on something
and i'm using the computer
playing games and typing this up
i want something to do
i could have finish packing my luggage for malaysia
and could have finish dl the whole series of
well not all as i have 15 more episodes to dl
and i have to finish them before friday
which is....
impossible
so...i thinks i'm going to bring my new laptop home
so i could dl it in Malaysia
i'm actually back home now
i safe it as my drafts
and now i'm conitnue typing it
i don't reall have anything to type now
......out of ideas.

BY Peanut

Work Experience

Second day of work experience and 3 more days to go!!!!

It's ok….

Kinda of boring to….

Really have to admit that

They have to find me work to do

Plus I finish it so quickly

NO, I'm not praising myself but the job they give me is really easy

So I sometimes wait like 10 to 15 minutes before I ask them if there are any other jobs I could do

However, today was somewhat better than yesterday

At least I got to go out with Julie to schools…2 schools

To deliver books that they order

And one of the schools was mum's

And then I got to use the register for 3 customers….

Proud of myself

And I used the tilt too

And rip the receipt

And gave change back to the customer

Lol…..happy me

And then had lunch with mum

Well, I actually prefer school than this but if you ask me to choose between camp and this…

Work experience!

Camp was a disaster

Well…not really

I survived so it can't be that bad

!!!!!

Hope the rest of the week will be good

Oh, Mrs Burton came and visited me…

It was pretty awkward

She had to ask these questions that the school wants her to ask me

It was like….

What is the worst part

And I answered, having nothing to do…

Which is true

And she asked

What was the best part

And I couldn't say there is no best part of it because it is true

So I say I don't know yet , it will come later in the week

But it's true too…

Maybe it will come later in the week!

I'm actually not looking forward for tomorrow but I have too

Because the next day after work experience…

I'm going back to MALAYSIA!

YAY! Holidays

But I hope It will be a peaceful trip.

Everytime we go back there is always so may arguments and shouting and stressing

*sigh*

There has been one the day before……

Hope we don't have to deal with it!!!

BY Peanut

Shopping Spree

Today we went down to the city for a shopping spree…me and mum

There is a reason why we when for a shopping spree

Cause we are going back to Malaysia the next weekend

So we have to go shopping this weekend to get stuff to bring back to wear

I bought a pair of shoes…sort of like converse

It's sliver , 'bling bling' lol!

It's what I wanted for ages!!!

I bought shorts and short sleeve t

I also bought a watch

ToyWatch…which cost like 4 hundred dollars

Which is about 1200 in Malaysia currency

I'll have to not eat and go shopping for the next have a year!!!!!

But I like the watch a lot

It had bling too and it's blue chronograph

Kinda cool!!!!

My luggage is going to explode!

I'll have so many clothes to bring home to wear!

And I also don't know which laptop to bring home

The IBM one? On this one?

The IBM one has my ITunes on it which if I wanted to upload songs on my ipod I could

This is one I'm using has a faster processor and better connection cause it's new

I don't know!

I also don't know what shoes to bring back….

I'm stressing too much

And I have work experience on Monday till Friday

Ugh…

BY Peanut

Smile…We love you!

Laura and Caitie came to school today

They were in the boardroom most of the time with us girls and some boys (*ahem* boyfriend)

But they came out into the courtyard at recess and lunchtime.

When me and Emma first went in to meet them

I was so afraid that when I open the door I would see them crying or their eyes all sore and red

But when I walk into the corridor that leads to the boardroom

I hear laughter…from Caitie

It was such a relief

The girls were actually in a better state than what I thought

Just don't go in to much on the subject and it will be alright

They had been so strong

Glad they have each other to support

And they also have us!!!!

We love you Caitie and Laura!!!!!

BY Peanut

我不会忘记....我们永远不会忘记你的存在

我不会忘记~曾国辉

不要惊醒这一刻的宁静
回忆举行盛大的游行
太多风景来不及看仔细
眨了眼睛一切都成为过去
我没有忘记
那年下的雨
淋湿了爱情
我们一同哭泣
我没有忘记
谁说过一句
感情是分不清
什么输赢
太多曾经太像一部电影
我们之间谁半途离席
谁最可惜谁来不及
是谁最先告诉我
你唱过的歌都很动听
我不会忘记
就算只是轻轻的鼓励
我不会忘记
就算只是小小的约定
我不会忘记
谁说过我爱你
也许转眼就分隔两地
也算是福气
当时那么不起眼
原来都是重要的细节
只有时间见证了我们的改变

BY Peanut

Gloom

The weather is so depressing

Today is so depressing

When I was on the bus today, I have this feeling that today is a bad day

I have my piano lesson

I have my French test and oral to do in front of the class

I have to go to Concord

However, you can get over these things after the end of the day

But I can't get over what just happened…..probably not at the end of the day

When we got to formroom,

Everyone was called into the same room (which isn't normal for us)

Then while calling the role, I saw Heather crying

I didn't know why, I didn't want to know why because it would be none of my business

So I just push it to the back of my head and said yes when my name was called out.

Then Mrs Scott our level manager came in,

Followed by Mrs Rowe, our head of secondary

I thought we were in trouble because there was a Facebook issue going on a few days ago

However, it was news

Bad news

Laura and Caitie's dad died yesterday…….

I couldn't believe what I was hearing…..

I couldn't think, and I couldn't close my mouth

Close friends of the twins started to have tears rolling down their face

And without noticing my eyes were stinging

Silent was everywhere

Nobody dare to talk or make a noise

Some left because they have to go to class and weren't close friends with the twins.

I stayed….i know I don't consider as a close friend to them but I just wanted to be there for them, no matter what

They have been there for me when I was lonely, and I want to be there for them

We hugged each other, some gasping with fear and unbelievable faces.

I couldn't bear thinking how the twins will feel right now,

And I can't understand that too

I'm not in their position right now…..

We were then settled in the boardroom and we sat there in silent for a few moments

And then Elish started grabbing the paper that Mrs Scott left so we could write cards and posters for the twins

She started writing "Why we love Caitie and Laura…."

Smiles appear in everyone's faces and slowly everyone started picking up pencils and started writing or drawing

By looking at how we react and the energy we have for each other was so amazing

The love….was so powerful. The bond between them and the twins.

I look at all the quotes we wrote and all the photos that they stuck on posters….

It was so amazing

And I realise, I actually don't really know them that well and I actually wasn't meant to be in there with them

I know it's not the time to think about these things

But I just amazes me that how much love and support friends can give to you

Me and Emma made a card for them,

A page was about Smithers a.k.a Voldermort.

We printed a photo of him and stuck it in the card.

I remember when we took that picture before assembly.

It was so funny……

Jemima contacted Courtney and Mina

Courtney is trying to get back from Adelaide tonight cause Jemima, Simone and Lexie are going up to the twins' place tomorrow

Andrew and Heather are going to ….. (Andrew and Heather were the first ones to know about the news)

This news compare to the three things that I thought was the worst thing ever this morning was even worst and horrible.

It is so unbelievable that someone can just leave this planet in one blink of an eye.

We weren't allow to contact the twins even on facebook

I won't be seeing them until next term

I want to give them a big hug

And want them to know….

Eventhough our relationship is not as close as you and Jemima or Simone but I just want you to know that you were there for me and I will be there for you guys.

We can go through the hard times together…..

We when through Science and Maths

This is just a bit harder than Science and Maths

But we know that we can go through it together.

Just remember everyone loves you…..

Your dad when to a beautiful place and he will hope you guys can live on happily…..

BY Peanut

P.S Remember we will always be there for you!!!! J L>O>V>E LAURA AND CAITIE!

不该结束....想念你

不该结束~南拳妈妈

窗外的雨停了天空还是灰的
因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着在笑容里停格
画面会永远留着

给多的是付出少给的不算输
感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部你还是想结束
我说你永远幸福

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始祝福的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束
走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住
你给的全部的全部

BY Peanut

Snippets

Just came back from the Yr 10 production "Snippets"
It's a traditional for Yr 10 drama students at our school to perform a play in Yr 10
Snippets is a series of short play
and i did actually enjoy it
Everyone involve in the play were stressing and saying how bad it was
compare to what i just saw....I was positive i wouldn't use bad to describe the play
it was awesome
everyone was awesome
Mackenzie was so funny....he is always funny
ahaha...
I went with Bec, Ellie and Grace
Haven't seen Ellie for ages, Bec for a while...Grace everyday
LOL
we talked so much
and it was a good catch up session
Bec and ellie was all shy seeing so much people
When we were talking,
i feel so free and comfortable around them
i just miss that feeling
and i always think
"what if they were still here at school...."
what will we be like.
Why did they have to leave????!!!!

By Peanut

雨是眼泪.....狠狠坠落

雨是眼泪~飞轮海

天空突然灰了压上肩头
你给的出口我还不想走
躺下看乌云难捉摸的形状
好像有话要说却沉默
我们会不会那样
oh~baby 倔强到最后
变成阵风各奔西东

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪很想坠落
可惜地上挤满笑容哪里有空

天空像累了沉睡在心中
谁再仰望都无动于衷
每一朵乌云原来是什么颜色
为了谁而不同我们可不可以
oh~baby 不要倔强不放手学会宽容

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我相信天空一定也很痛
雨是眼泪怎么坠落
有谁会懂oh~谁会让它停留oh my baby

来一场暴雨把我卷走有没有用

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
却不敢放肆挥霍这点痛
雨是眼泪很怕天空
一无所有

雨像眼泪暗自汹涌
我知道天空只剩这点痛
雨是眼泪偷偷坠落
伞下的你刚好经过

Change

It's raining at the moment outside,
it was sunny for the 1st half of the day,
and now its raining
the weather do change really quickly
so does people and everything around us
or maybe it's just not being with them or it for a period of time
and when you see it again...
it just feels really different and everything has change
but to those people who is there for the whole time will be saying
"I need a change...."
Well, isn't change the basic personality for a human being
you're changing everyday
everything around us...the changes are all made from us
we change basically anything
and you say we can't change the weather...well we can in a way
Climate change....isn't that changing the weather
we can make the earth hotter and colder
the sun is slowly coming out again....another change of the weather...again.
Relationship change too....the common change in life
couples will say...."we need a change...let's break up"
friends will say...."you've changed....i can't be friends with you anymore."
the change you see around us is actually the change you made to youself that you change the view of what you see
the sun is glaring in my eyes now.....
change is everywhere
everywhere is change
change is made by us
and the change we feel is the change we made

BY Peanut

疯人愿....我是个疯子

疯人愿~魏晨

很想念我想你的笑脸
是对你的爱恋
声音回荡耳边
轻轻想起你对我那些誓言
真的好遥远在瞬间沦陷
很胆怯你对我的敷衍
不想对谁亏欠
泪水划过指尖
画面昨天的故事还在上演
如果能永远我依然情愿
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

很胆怯你对我的敷衍
不想对谁亏欠
泪水划过指尖
画面昨天的故事还在上演
如果能永远我依然情愿
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

我想要忘了忘了忘了忘了你的样子
心上的泪水画的日记一张白纸
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
要爱你一辈子写爱你的故事
在我心里承诺了几千次
我是个疯子疯子疯子只爱你的疯子
你是个傻子傻子傻子傻的却好懂事
说出我的心事是爱你的故事
说不出爱你是我太固执

BY Peanut

2 weeks

2 more weeks left till holidays
1 more week of school
and 1 week of work experience
I really hate the last few weeks of term
because you have so much test and assignments to finish before the end of term
this week has been so hectic eventhough it's the just the second day of the week
the yr 10 drama class have their drama play this thrusday and friday
they basically have rehersals every spare time they have
they need to stay in for lunch times and after school
i know it's not me but it affects us to
because of some group work we have to do together
especially legal which the script of our mock court is due this friday
we got most of the script done
we just have to finish it off and put it in order
memorise it and act it out
sound easy eh....it's not!
lol
plus the cadets have the passing out parade and they have rehersal of it this thrusday and next tuesday
we have to do our mock court then next thrusday or friday
we can't do it on wednesday because Alex is going on an art excursion
and the teacher wants the whole class to be there
however, courtney will be in adelaide for the whole week and now i have to memorise both her and my lines
i'm not good at drama and memorising scripts!
And then i have a french oral presentation
you have to descirbe a paiting or a picture in french
and present to the class
you get cue cards but only 25 words
what i am i going to do with 25 words and only in dot point form
and i have a frnch writting presentation too
I don't know....so hectic
and english Macbeth essay
VF Muhammad questions
FML!

BY Peanut