Fantasy/Dream, Clarification and some random stuff about school

Oh, i decided to not write any more negative stuff...people will think I am an emo which I'm not. I just have really troublesome mood swings.... Now back to the topic.

OK, i guess everyone who is reading this had once dreamed and fantasise themselves in somewhere beautiful or with someone you love alot. I love doing it. It is like a "thing" you do when you know it won't ever happen in real life, or it might, if a miracle happens. The only part i love about sleeping is the dreaming bit. Sometimes, i love my dreams and of course I get scare of nightmares. But i have them less often now. I once of this reoccuring nightmare when i was Grade 2 and I was so scare to go to bed. I think is was to stress at that time because I was in the advance class and you know.....the pressure. But later on, i was alright after grade 2.

I love daydreaming. It is my favourite subject, that's why i'm so quiet around people. I just sit there and stare out into space. Images will just come and go in my mind. It such a wonderful thing. It calms me down and lifts my sprit. However, sometimes it makes me feel sad because i will always tell myself...why can't this happen in real life? Why? Oh God, i'm being negative again.....Told you guys i have quick mood swings.....

I love reading novels too becaue you can fantasise the characters. Sometimes, you guys could also try putting yourself and the people around you as the characters. It is so much fun. As i said in the last post about the Twilight series.....I sometime potray myself as the character but i know it won't happen.....ever. I don't mean meeting a vampire i mean the close relationship between. Edward and Bella......yeah.... Ok, positive....POSITIVE!!!!

Soz, guys. It is just so hard to not think about the "stuff" that will cause me mood swings and get all negative because the "stuff" is nearly related to every subject. I'm not emo, once again for clarification. I'm just at a growing age with quick mood swings. ^^ Look back to normal....i am, a weird child!

I don't really like my piano teacher. She is sometimes nice and sometimes not....maybe she is having mood swing too. LOL ^^ you should get what i mean. We watched a movie in Frnech which lasted for 3 lessons and it is DRAINING ass. I nearly fell asleep in all the lessons. I hope she doesn't asked us to write a review or something because i don't get the movie. It is some sort like HSM but in an old fashion way. I don't mean it like it is high school and cute girls and hot boys ^^..... i mean the singing bit where you talk and suddenly you sing and then you talk again. I like HSM but the worst bit is the voice of the singing is sometimes a girl but a guy is "singing" it. Hope you get what i mean. And it is in French...of course and we have to read the subtitles and look at what is happening at once. I know i'm multitask but not that good at it!

We also watch a movie in Science and i nearly wanted to puke after watching it. We are now doing genetics in Science. The movie was about problems in the sex genes.....which was quite.....materialised....yeah.... Thinking of it jus makes me want to puke again.....Bleh. We have a Maths test on Monday. the topic is measurement. I don't think i could cope much in advance Maths. My grades on my test are lower as before. But if i drop to mainstream i won't be in the advance Science which i love so much....i don't know what to do. Ok, i do. I should go study more, pratice more and not sitting here typing this post up. ^^

I finished Twilight....not quite a few more pages....4 maybe? And i'm off the "New Moon" hoping i could finish the whole (for now) series before "New Moon" comes onto the big screen! I'm also waiting for the release of the Twilight movie on DVD so i can watch it. I watch some of it on YouTube but i couldn't finish it off because the rest of the parts have been removed (it was illegal to upload the movie!) They skip quite alot of the details in the movie (where i was up too) It was going too fast! ^^ The director said, like most movies that were potrayed from books have to be cut short and able to be visualised. I hope my favourite scene won't be cut off!
...............................................................................................................................................................Sorry I was daydreaming or should i say night dreaming again. Where was I?m Oh, yeah we have to do this essay for legal and the due date was meant to be this coming Monday but we said to the teacher that it was the next Monday (23/3) She looked in her teacher's diary to check if we were right but she didn't write it down. So, she told us the due day was on the 23/3 and she got muck up with her Yr 12's. LOL ^^ we were sort of laughing behind her back. Teehee!

I better stop typing now because
1. I'll do more daydreaming
2. I'm tired and want to go to bed....to dream and fantasied ^^
3. I can't be bother thinking about topics to blog anymore.....which leads to....
4. My life is not that interesting so i hope i'm not boring people to sleep

So, TA! Good night or good morning....whatever suits you and....everyone, please keep on fantasising and dreaming, it's the best gift ever to you. I feel religious saying that but i still mean my words! Bye!

Love Peanut ^^
xoxoxoxoxo

Mixed Feelings...

Here are some of the feelings I'm experiencing this few days......


Gloomy/Depressed
School is getting more quiet and gloomy for me. Sometimes its good. Sometimes its alright. Sometimes i just can't be bother doing anything and trying my best to mix around. I just feel so depressed about what's been going on in the school community(bushfire incident) and a different school life I'm having without my best friends. Before, i was quite cheerful to go to school when i know my friends are waiting for me and we will have a good day but now there isn't much to look forward at school....homework maybe?

Jealous
I'm jealous because the people around me have found love. No matter what type of love it is....friends or lovers it just makes me feel uneasy to be around them. Whenever I see photos of their outing, i will start having this emotion in me telling....Why don't I have any of this love in my life? Everyone in "the gang" treat each other so full of love while i feel I'm invisible. I know it's a bit erupt to just join their group but where can i still go in this tough school community....I don't know. Everyone is talking about the debt that is on the 20/3. It is like a prom. Everyone in the gang is going and I really wanted to go. I wanted to buy myself a dress and wear high heels. I really want to find a partner to go with.....but I can't. It's just to hard for me to go....all by myself and start mingling around. I heard so much stories around....and i don't really want to get hurt. But I really wish i could attend and look as pretty as everyone else and share the fun.

Missing.....
I'm missing everything about the past, bad or good. It so hard to let go of everything and start all over. I miss my friends, my family....and maybe that someone.....I don't really feel like going into it too much, so i'll leave it there.

Tired/Exhausted
So many homework and stress on me! Everything is due the next day and don't have much time....It is even worse when m relatives are here (they're leaving the day after.....) I have been off school for 3 days and I have to catch up so badly. I think I drop a grade in some of my subjects. It's a bit to hard to cope...but i'll try my best, hopefully.

Ok, i guess i should start at the good feelings.....May I? I hope i do have some......

Obssesed
OMG! I'm now so obsses on the "Twilight" series. I love it! I can't believe i only start reading it recently since it was first published in 2005! Ok, to clarify, i still haven't watch the movie so i'm not like those people who watch the movie and read the books later. I prefer reading the books and then watch the movie. But i heard from my friends saying the movie is shit because the director knew that alot of people will come and watch and stuff...so they made it quite "simple". I guess i should watch and see. Loving Edward and Bella!

Joy/Happy
I'm happy because my favourite show is back again. I won't mention the name but it is the best show ever to me! It's funny and it soothes me down from the difficult days at school. I'm glad it's back, i cried when the season endded and said they were not coming back. But they did promise they will come back one day and they did kept their promise....I love you guys!

Ok...I don't really have much positive stuff. My life is stuff then....LoL....just kidding ^^. I have a positive mind and little positive stuff can easily win over negative thoughts. Trust me...i'm strong, sometimes......

Only Ten Meaningful Quotes.....

My friend send me an e-mail and the title was only ten meaningful quote. I thought the quotes had a very deep meaning and i hope you guys will take time to think over it. The e-mail is written in Chinese so I have to translate it for you guys....I'll post the Chinese version here too...if there are people out there who prefer to read in Chinese ^^.... ha ha
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• 1st Quote

If there is a 1000 steps between us

you just have to take 1 step

And I will walk the other 999 steps towards you.

• 2nd Quote

Normally does who stay behind and argue with you....

are the people that truly love you.

• 3nd Quote

Giving away your sincerity, in return will get someones sincere

but you may also get hurt thoroughly

Keeping a distance, will protect yourself

but will also be destined to be lonely forever.

• 4th Quote

Sometimes, its not that the other person doesn't care about you it is because you see the person as someone who is over important.

• 5th Quote

A friend is someone who had seen through you and still loves you.

• 6th Quote

Even though it's believe, lies are hidden in the middle.

• 7th Quote

A true friend,

Doesn't mean that there are endless topics when together

It means,

when together, even though we don't talk

we won't ever feel awkward.

• 8th Quote

There is never a 100% partner

Only two 50% person together

• 9th Quote

Someone because of your sadness and feel happy is your enemy

Someone because of your happiness and feel happy is your friend

Someone because of you sadness and feel sad

is someone you should put in your heart

• 10th Quote

Coolness doesn't always meant heartless

it is only a weapon to stop someone getting hurt.

OMG! those translations i just did were shit! They completely spoil the true meaning! I hope you guys can still understand what I'm trying to bring across. Some are not that bad but some....doen't even flow fluently and doesn't make much sense. LOL ^^ Oh well i tried and this is what i produced! Translating is so hard because you can't find the right words you want to use to express the feeling of the sentence. It took me so long to think of the words I should use. Hope you guys can take some time and read it. It's more meaningful in Chinese though..... If anyone gets to learn Chinese in the near future come back and read the real version. I'll bet you'll have a different look towards it.....well not saying my translation are that bad! Anyways, here is the Chinese version!

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• 第一句

如果我们之间有1000步的距离　　

你只要跨出第1步　　

我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步　　

• 第二句　　

通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人　　

才是真正爱你的人　　

• 第三句　　

付出真心　

才会得到真心　　

却也可能伤得彻底　　

保持距离　就能保护自己　　

却也注定永远寂寞　　

• 第四句　　

有时候　不是对方不在乎你　　

而是你把对方看得太重　　

• 第五句　　

朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人　　

• 第六句　　

就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie　　

• 第七句　　

真正的好朋友　

并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题　　

而是在一起　就算不说话　　

也不会感到尴尬　　

• 第八句　　

没有一百分的另一半　　

只有五十分的两个人　　

• 第九句　　

为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人　　

为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友　　

为你的难过而难过的　　
就是那些　该放进心里的人　

• 第十句　　

冷漠　有时候并不是无情　　

只是一种避免被伤害的工具

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ps:本人觉得这十句话很有深度，很有意思。认真去思考，你会得到意想不到的收获。请不要吝啬，转发出去跟你身边的好友分享~大家友谊万岁~谢谢^^

Tired....

My relatives have been here for 4 days now. It's been so hectic! I like people coming over because it's merrier but i hate it when people become too merry. What i mean is that they take it as the home and sort of.....you know do anything they want. I know its not their fault because they don't know anything here and how we use them....but i just can't stand it.

For example, my bathroom is now being used by more than 10 people everyday. The bathroom is now a shocker! And my study room has people sleeping in it. They talk so much at night that i either have to sleep earlier before them or sleep after they slept, which won't happen because i have school the next day. We have to prepare and cook food for them which cost lots. And they have to borrow stuff from us because they didn't bring them. I'm just glad they didn't have to sleep in my room or i'll be fuming!!!! LOL ^^ well, except for all those thing i mention, they're quite alright to be around with.

i have the cold now because i was under the rain for 3 days now. I have to tour them around the city and it was raining at school yesterday. Uhh.....block nose. NOT HAPPY....^^ Yesterday dad brought them to Phillip Island and today they are going to see the 12 apostles and at night we're having a BBQ at my relatives's place. JOY!

Yesterday, while i was playing cards with my two grandma's, i felt the earthquake going throught me. It was scary ass. I was like EARTHQUAKE! and mum, who was washing the dishes said, it was just the wind and both my grandma said that they didn't felt it. Then my cousin from Malaysia called saying that his friend from Aus told him that there was an earthquake in Melbourne. i was like... I KNEW IT! Lol^^ it was 4.6 on the Ricther Scale and the epicentre is at Korumburra, about 90 kilometres south-east Melbourne. *LOL, copied it of the internet! haha! I would hid under the table if everyone felt it! That will be funny....maybe not. ^^

Well gtg. Don't want mum or dad to read what i typed about "THEM" LOL~ bye~~~~

Love
xoxoxox

:Lucky eh?!

I just finish putting all the bed sheets into 5 mattress and all pillowcases in 8 pillows. it was freakin tiring! The bedsheets doesn't fit properly into the beds which makes me even more fustrated. because i want it to be all perfect! My nails hurt so much now! Anywayz back to the topic!

I don't know, but i think somthings that i think, say or dream about will sort of come true. If i was thinking about a song while listening to my ipod, the next song will be it. Last night, i dreamt that it was going to rain and put out the bushfires that were coming to our place. When i woke up this morning, there was no bushfires but there was raining, well drizzle of rain. I was like....WOAH!

Yesterday evening, i was watching my favourite team playing soccer. They have to kick the penalties because extra time were over. So i started jumping around getting all nervous and stuff. Then my fav team score the first goal! I was like YAY!! and then it was the rival team to kick. I was like "BLOCK IT! DON"T LET IT IN!" and after the player kicked it, the goalkeeper really block the ball. And my team won. Isn't that weird! ^^

Then at school yesterday i heard people not going to school today because of the dry conditions. I was like....hmmmm i hope i can get a day off too! and then at last period a notice said that if a day off is required then you can have one. Well, it actually said that Prep to Yr 8 can get a day off and y9 to yr12 have classes as normal. But still i wanted a day off and started naging and annoy my mum to let me have a day off! Well the weather conditions here is a fire threat zone so....YEAH! ^^ Well i just hope everyone is safe 2day and nothing worst will happen.

And also, one last thing about my luck. When i dreamt about something and i look up the meaning of it in the . The meaning of what is going on with my life really did come true. Not telling what came true but it did before and after the dream. Well i can't say that is luck because some of them are not really nice but still it's like WOAH! ^^ i use that word alot!

Oh, we played basketball at PE yesterday. Boys and girls combine team and i score a point. Well it's good enough. We girls scored more boys than boys. bleh! ^^ Eveyone started asking me, Oh do you play basketball? I was like...only at school. Don't get too over of yourself! LOL!

Braclet, i have to go out for lunch now and get something that we still need for my relatives. Txt me if you can! Oh, can you send or upload the photos we took at the hotel room. I really want them so i can put on my desktop wallpaper. Please!!!! You know i love you....ok, in a friends way! Tell me when you upload/send it! Bye!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Luvxx