Saturday, April 10, 2010

Freedom

Back from Japan
Sorry I couldn't blog
on everyday of my trip in Japan
except for that one day
10 days...
flied so quickly
fun and laugther
small cries and moody feelings
that was basically my trip to Japan
lets don't talk about "us" firsts
will go from the basics
k?
:)
We have 38 people in our tour
plus tour leaders
Vinny is the tour leader
and Lawrent is the tour guide
Vinny is a bit blur at some times
LOL
and she doesn't speak English well...
SOWIE....
and Lawrent
sometimes the pronunciation is a bit....funny
for example
he pronounce trader
as traitor
lol
me and mum was like HUH?!
and it was in a funny context
But beside that he is funny, cheerful and colourful
as his own fashion sense
that i quite like!
:)
he sings well too !
the hotels overall was good
the first day
was a big hotel
but it got smaller and smaller till the 3rd day
and 4th day
and then smaller again
yesterday's was the WORST
lol
we had Japanese set for and lunch and dinner
MOSTLY EVERYDAY
all lunches but not all dinner
and hotel buffet continental breakfast
EVERY MORNING
ewww....
no more bacon or sausages
or any japanese food
for a few months
most of the people was getting sick
because of the lack of fruits and vegetables
and a lot of fried
the tempura was SHIT!
it was so oily....
yuck!
and the miso soup!
it was soooooo salty!
the food was the only bad thing i reckon
there was ALOT of sakura
and i liked it
but got a bit bored after the 1st 2 days of sakura everywhere
hahaha
Shopping...
hmmm
everytime we get to a shopping place
the shops will be closing down
they close at 8~9 pm
and after dinner
its about 8:30
most of the shops are close
so we have limited choice
mum was like
"lawrent is brining us to see the closing ceremonies of shops"
but we all got stuff!
so no worries!
It was fun...
except for...
you know
the last few days we ... or I slept early
That night was the best
however
one night is only what i get
even though we had another similar night
it was the same
as that night
and later
it didn't happen again
especially yesterday and the day before
the 2nd night was the worst night ever
he had internet access
no conversation at all going between us
obviously he can then talk to his friend and his gf
so why bother talking to me
so might as well go to bed
but i couldn't sleep
but he thinks i'm asleep
i played music from my IPOD
through the headphone
with full blast volume
and doze off
but when it came to "that" song
i woke up
and i wanted to ' hear ' his reaction
and guess what
nothing...
then i coulnd't sleep again
but doze off
suddenly i was so hot
and woke up again
hearing him using skype talking to his "friend"
I really want to ignore you
but i never can
seeing you the next day
sleeping on the bus
why treat yourself like that?!
i mean
a holiday meant to be relaxing and exploring
you're relaxing too much
and exploring too little
just because you can't leave your friends behind for 10 days
and just have a true holiday?!
maybe....
maybe its because that i don't have much close friends
well basically none
so i won't understand
but i do hope you understand me
hearing how many friends miss you
i feel more of a loner
nobody cares where i go
and nobody say they miss me
my fb wall is just my photo and my statuses i post
and some regular readers
like you....
you're not my friend....
you're my...
....my
*sigh*
my someone
i backspace what i just typed
if i post it
i'll regret
someday
do you remember that night in Tokyo Dome Hotel?
When you came out of the shower
i wasn't asleep
i pretended
you called my name
i really wanted to answer
but instinct said no......
when you were in the bathroom
mum called and i when to get your medication
i filled a warm glass of water and put it beside your bed
with the medication
i dunno
it just feels right to do it
and it feels right to pretend to be asleep
i dunno why i'm doing this
but i'm just following what my mind tells me too
maybe that's why
all these years
i never success in socialising
*sigh*
this is the Japan trip
the "wonderful" Japan trip
that i once though was wonderful....
By Pearly

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