I"m finally in Japan

Dream Come True

I waited for so long...

and finally the time is here

a time where a can spend it with you

however

no matter how beautiful the scenery

how exciting the atmosphere is

how good the food is

I don't find any happiness in it

Because you are here but

your heart is somewhere else

we chatted yesterday night

and I mentioned "her"

not her name

just a hint that i know what was going on

it was awkward

and you didn't feel like going on with the conversation

however

i kept on going

it hurt inside of me

but...

i don't know why

i want to let him know that i know what is happening

i want to let him know what i am thinking

i want to let him know what i am doing

i want to let him know that i am jealous

he knows what i know is happening

but he doesn't know what i amd thinking and doing

and lastly

he won't ever know that i am jealous

because he never will

think that I

will be jealous because he got a girlfriend

why would i be jealous?

online was his main prioity in Japan

to obviously talk to his gf

everywhere we go

he always talks about something concerning her

the camera

the jeans

......

that just proof that he is in love with her

because...

i always do that

no matter who i talk to

where i go to

i can relate you with anything

you are part of my life

I was part of your life

until...

I left?

gone forever

BY PEARLY