:'(
I fail once again
I tired so hard
but
in the end
I get nothing
I feel shit now
Am i cursed
that no one will ever love me?
no one?
so what if I love someone
it doesn't make a difference
they don't love you
you can't do anything about it
the worse thing is
he loves someone you know
and you feel even worse
wanna hear about it?
he won't find it here
anyway....
I was trying to forget 'him'
so i try to socialise more at school
then a new girl came to school
so we became friends
and we join "the boys"
and I admit
I do have a "thing" for one of them
but I knew i won't be me
I knew that relationship was coming
I can't deny it
whenever we sit at recess an lunch
both of them will be together
one time
she ask him for icecream
but he doesn't want to buy it for her
so he went off and brought his icecream
he came back with a spoon and a icecream
he was like
"give me your hand"
and he cut the icypole into two and gave it to her
he didn't even ask me
he was
"just not much into you...."
i try and try
but it didn't work
I also want to admit that
i wanted him to be my partner for formal
oh well...
there goes another chance....
gone
long gone.
I just know they were going out today
through fb
and i wrote my status
"i wish it was me"
less then a minute
he talked to me through fb chat
and ask
"what does it mean"
adding
"i wanna know"
I answered
"it doesn't concern you...."
adding a
"LOL"
to it.
obviously it concerns you...
but i can't do anything about it
did he knew about my feelings towards him
i mean...
why would he urge me to tell him what my status was refering to?
I had that sense of hope
but it was gone after he ask about their relationship problems
he was saying that
"her parents dislike me"
and i laughed
and replied
"cause you're weird"
and that was the truth
he ask me how to make them "like him"
i replied
"time"
and maybe
that's what i need
TIME
By Pearly
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