don't expect...

sometimes life isn't what you expect it to be....
For example,
you didn't expect to do exams
you didn't expect to dream about something bad
and you didn't expect to not ever have a true friend

ok point number 1.
nobody likes exams and i freakin don't like them.
I had my maths exam (tech free)today
it wasn't hard..it was alright i guess
but i knew i got a few wrong
silly mistakes
then after the mid-term break
i'll start my exams
math and legal on the first day
english vf
science health and then french and french oral on the last day
I'm kinda stressing but not
if i think about it i will go nuts
and if i don't i'm happy
so i'm trying hard to not think about it
but guess what!
its not working! UHHHHHHHHH!

point 2
these dreams are really stressing me more!
ok, i don't really want to go in dept
but it relates to death
and it was the same death twice now
and i don't want it to happen
which i know somehow will someday
but not now....

point 3
true friend
what is a true friend?
i actually don't have a true friend
when the world walks out on you, a true friends walks in
and i don't think anyone had qualified that
not even you bec! LOL
you move to ridgeway! and ellie....
JKs!
anyway, friends at school are just on and off friendliness
sometimes they are really friendly
sometimes....just don't say hi
don't feel sorry for me
because i'm use to it
when i was small i'm already used to it
even my cousin(my 'best' friend) is walking away from me
i don't know!
UH!

LoL, Bec i read your draft, lol funny! hope you blog soon! SOon! and happy studying to everyone!

BY Peanut

Safe and Sound

Back to Melbourne now....
lol, i'm like on the other post
" I'm in Malaysia now"
and then now i;m like
"i'm back in Melbourne now..."
i find it quite funny....
I don't want to go to school tomorrow
i want to stay at home a day and then go to school
I don't want to go!!!!!
but i don't think i can
i have to
dad is so mean!
BLEH!

BY Peanut

I knew it....i always do

Today, or should i say yesterday now
we celebrated the mooncake festival
eventhough the real day is today
we celebrated it yesterday because we are not free tonight as we are going to dinner with other people
as i said before i knew that my aunt and thier family won't come
and of course i was right
they never appeared....
remembering all those years me and their family celebrated togehter
light candles...and lanterns
and guess what....i don't think we even ate mooncake yesterday
we ate western cakes...as in real cakes
as my other cousin's chinese birthday
so they might as well celebrate it
my uncle got two cakes
one birthday cake and one tanlung cake
which means latern in chinese
which was really funny
we thought it was a cke made in a tanlung shape or something relevant to it
but i was a american choclate cake with "happy tanglung" written on it
i was laughing myself out
after that me and my cousins when outside to start playing with the candles and lantern
that was meant to be the spotlight of the night
however...it felt so ordinary...so quiet and ...boring
we did the ritual of burning a rock but still...
it's not the same as before...
i don't think it will ever be...ever

BY Peanut